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“It’s definitely an Adjustment, but it’s beautiful. She is so beautiful.” She cooed at Sophia.

“She looks like her father.” My mom walked out into the living room holding a glass of iced tea that I’d just made.

I shook my head and rolled my eyes. “Don’t remind me.” I had literally carried that child my entire pregnancy and she looked nothing like me. That was disrespectful as hell to me. Sophia looked exactly like her damn daddy.

“Don’t feel bad, none of my children look like me. They all look like Cass. I thought CJ would look a little like me, or his sister but they got older and boom. Their daddy’s twin and I’m just out here looking like the outsider.” Lola shrugged.

My mama cracked up laughing. “You’re dramatic, CJ does look a little like you but this baby looks nothing like your sister. Had I not seen my very heavy pregnant daughter then I wouldn’t think this was her.”

We all laughed.

I was more so laughing because when I told Quari that Sophia looked nothing like me, he had the nerve to tell me that we could try again so I could possibly get a look alike and he could get his junior.

“I just hate that I wasn’t there and now my baby sister is grown and a mommy.” Lola was still staring down at Sophia. Do it again so I can be here again.” She looked up at me with that last part.

I screwed my face up at that one. She definitely had it messed up if she thought I was going through anything that I had gone through these last few months again. Before I knew it, I started shaking my head and responded with terminology that I’d heard Quari use. “Nah fam, that’s cap. I don’t think that man is ever getting another kid from me.”

Lola looked from my mother to me, before she cracked up laughing. “You even sounded like him right there. You should’ve just seen your face.”

“I think it’s safe to say Sophia messed it up for any future siblings, huh?” My mama asked.

“Yup. At least you know.” I shrugged my shoulders.

“I told you to do the epidural, but you don’t listen. You thought I was joking but when I had Sapphire I felt like I was dying. I felt like for hours that child tore me in half and all I could do was take it. That’s why I made sure they gave me drugs when I had CJ and Cazzi. I wasn’t playing at all.”

What my sister didn’t know was I was serious about the idea of not having any more kids anytime soon. Then again I could say that right now but if Quari walked in here right now and said the right thing, I’d be down for the count.

Chapter 18

Gayze

Maybe I shouldn’t have given in and went back to Mazzier so soon, I probably should’ve actually been done. The problem within me is I couldn’t. Mentally, I was trying too hard to get over a man who I’d already let in. I mean I had literally let him further in than I had ever let another. But then I had to take into account that he was the first man that I had ever laid down with, not to mention the first and only man to have broken my heart. So of course I could say one thing and probably even mean it but at the end of the day I know who thugged me. That day in my therapist's office I saw that and accepted that, he wasn’t perfect but that didn’t mean I wouldn’t expect better from him. Even though he was in my therapist office acting the fuck up, he showed me a side of him that I could never forget. Then again to be honest, my resolve had left the moment he said he loved me.

“C’mon G, I told you I’d help ya ass move. Just chill here for a few days since you’RE off.” He kissed my neck while I maneuvered through his kitchen making and serving pancakes. I slipped from his embrace and walked over to where Mel sat at the table. I cut her pancaked up before pouring the syrup inthem and walking back to where he was. She was the cutest kid and always to herself. She was just like Mecca if you asked me, always creatively in her own world.

“You heard me?” He asked as he stepped behind me again.

The feel of him behind me made me weak to the point where my limbs just wanted to fall back and let him catch me in hopes that he’d carry me into his room. “Yes, I heard you Mazzier, but I don’t think you realize I’m having my grandmother's stuff moved in and mine. That’s two houses.”

“I do understand that. I just need you not to be at ya crib alone. I don’t know why that nigga sought you out but I can’t take no chances.” He sounded concerned which in the moment was cute.

“Maybe because I’m gorgeous and thick in all the righ?—”

He slapped me on my ass before I could finish my sentence. “Fuck outta here with that, Gayze.” He turned me around and made me look at him before he gripped my chin and tilted it up. He licked my lips before mashing his into mine. “Can you let me handle this and?—”

I put my finger to his lips and nodded my head. “Fine I still gotta go to Dolly’s, anymore demands?”

He laughed. “Don’t be shushing me like I’m some kid. I could think about a few more demands though, Dr. Carson.” He smirked.

“Nah, baby I can you Imma need you to get that thang tested before you find your way be?—”

“Fuck I look like? I ain’t out here like that.” He mugged me momentarily.

I giggle lightly. “C’mon now, you did have a lot of fun. While we were apart you did have fun with Red and her friend, right?”

“Wrapped up fun. Don?—”

“I said what I said, Mazzier. Now what do you want on your pancakes?” I stepped out of his embrace and walked over to flipthe other pancakes. He seemed to be a little mad but then a big ass smirk covered his handsome face.

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