Page 91 of Shadows of You

“You’re an amazing mom.”

Aspen swallowed hard. “I didn’t protect her from this.”

I took her hand, squeezing. “That’s not on you. It’s on those bloodsucking vultures.”

“I’m scared she’ll somehow hear that it was her dad who hurt her mom.”

“We’re going to do everything we can to make sure that doesn’t happen. I’ll have Law call the school and talk to the principal.”

Aspen nodded, her eyes drooping. “Thank you.”

“Get some sleep. I’ll get you something to eat when you wake up.”

“Okay…” But she was already dropping off before she could finish her sentence.

I didn’t move right away. Couldn’t. I just watched Aspen breathe. Let a little of the feral energy coursing through me ease with the even inhales and exhales.

But the worst of the darkness still swirled inside me. Worry and fear surged and fed it. Terror that I could lose this woman who’d come to mean everything.

* * *

I leanedback on the porch swing as I stared out at the pastures. How often had I watched Aspen and Cady move around their property, feeding the animals, grooming them, playing with them? I’d thought for sure there was no way the joy on their faces could be real.

Now, I knew it was. But more than that, I knew it was there despite everything they’d been through—loss and betrayal and pain.

One of the donkeys kicked out as the other got too close. A goat sharing the field didn’t take too kindly to that and charged donkey number one—the one Cady called Mabel.

I shook my head and glanced at my watch. Aspen had been asleep for over five hours. I’d checked on her three times, watching her chest rise and fall to ensure she was all right. But even telling myself over and over that she was fine didn’t help.

I forced my gaze back to the fields, trying to find some of the peace I used to get watching Aspen and her animals. But too many demons circled to find true relief.

The door behind me squeaked, and I looked up to see Aspen shuffling out in oversized sweats. She frowned at me. “It’s freezing out here.”

I shrugged. “I like watching the animals.” My gaze swept over her face. “How do you feel?”

“A lot better. Sorry I freaked out on you.”

“You didn’t.”

“I went all…” Aspen lifted her hands above her head and made circular motions.

“You’ve been through a lot.”

She studied me for a moment. “Are you okay?”

“Why wouldn’t I be?”

Aspen closed the distance between us and lowered herself to the swing. “Oh, I don’t know, maybe because you look like you want to tear someone’s head off.”

My back teeth ground together. “I hate that these jackholes are putting you through this. Hate that they’re putting you at risk.”

Just voicing it had fear clawing at my insides.

Her hand covered mine. “It’s freeing in a way.”

“Freeing?”

She nodded, looking out at the pasture. “Don’t get me wrong, I’m scared. I think part of me always will be. But I’ve been hiding for so long, worried about people finding out who I really am. Now, they know. It’s all out in the open.”

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