I went without argument or complaint. I didn’t say a word as he forced my head down and shoved me into the back of the squad car. I didn’t cry out when the metal of the cuffs bit into my skin, tearing at it. I stared straight ahead as we pulled away, and I didn’t once look back at the boy I loved with everything I had.
“Doyou really think the cuffs need to stay on?” A man dressed in khakis and a button-down scowled at the officer standing next to my chair.
“Do you want to see photos of the stash we pulled from her and her boyfriend’s car? They could’ve kept the whole county high for weeks.”
“Uncuff her, McAdams,” the older man ordered.
The cop grumbled something under his breath but did as he was told. I felt blessed relief as the metal dropped away from my wrists. I brought my arms around, rubbing at the red marks.
The older man scowled as he took in the abraded skin. “You’re done here, McAdams.”
“Happy to be,” the officer spat as he left the interrogation room.
The man eased himself into a chair opposite me. He folded his hands, letting them rest on the table. The gold of his wedding band glinted against the dark brown of his skin. “Would you like some water?”
“No, thank you.”
“You let me know if that changes. I’m Detective Markum. You’re in some pretty serious trouble. But I’d like to help you as much as I can.”
The burn was back in my throat. And no amount of swallowing alleviated the pain. “Did you call my parents?”
“I did. They weren’t home, but I left a message with your sister for them to call me as soon as they return.”
Date night. Their ritual where they left their cell phones at home and went out together. I glanced at the clock on the wall. I had at least another thirty minutes of respite before they returned. Thirty minutes before the hammer came down.
I could already feel the sting of the slap. The burn of the punch that would land somewhere on my torso—anywhere clothing would cover. Never on the face. The one time he’d been overzealous and had broken several ribs, my mother had invented a story about me jumping on my bed and taking a tumble. The hospital had believed it hook, line, and sinker.
“Anna, did you hear me?”
Detective Markum’s voice brought me out of the memory. “Sorry, what?”
“You can wait until you’ve spoken with them to talk to me.”
I shook my head. I didn’t want to wait. I wanted to hurry up and get this over with. The conversation. The punishment that would come after my parents picked me up. Everything. “I’ll tell you anything you want. But I don’t think I know much.”
Markum nodded slowly. “That’s not what Derek is saying.”
I stiffened at the way the detective said my boyfriend’s name. As if it were a bomb just waiting to go off. “What did he say?”
“He said the drugs were yours. Said he was just holding them for you.”
“What?!” The word came out on a panicked shriek. “I’ve never even done drugs.” Sure, I drank at parties, but every time Derek smoked pot or took a pill, I always declined.
“Evidence is pointing to you both being involved.”
My breaths started coming faster, one after the other. Each one seemed to tumble over the last with the urge to get out and be free. “I-I’m not. I didn’t.” My fingers began to tingle as I struggled to suck in air.
Markum rose, coming around the table. “Easy now. Just breathe. Nice and slow. Follow me.”
He took a long, slow breath, raising his hand with his inhale and lowering it with his exhale. I tried to follow him, but it took several tries before I could. After a few minutes, the tingling in my hands started to retreat. “Sorry,” I mumbled.
He patted my shoulder. “No need to apologize. We’re going to figure this out. We just have to take it one step at a time.”
“Test me.” I straightened at the genius of the thought. “You guys can do that, right? I can pee in a cup or give you some of my hair.”
“We’ll do that. And if it’s negative—”
“It will be.”