Page 34 of Resisting Your Love

"What?" Zyanna's eyes widened. "No way. I don't believe that."

I shrugged. "You don't have to believe me. It's true."

I gave them a rundown of what had happened yet again. As I restated what happened between us, I gritted my teeth together. It angered me that the woman I love was still hung up on her ex. That was wrong as hell.

"That doesn't mean Amryn's stuck on him. Did you ever think to tell her to change her number? She said she blocked his main number. What else do you want her to do? You broke up with her for no reason and then had the nerve to say what between y'all is only the contract. If I were her, I would have beaten your ass."

I covered my eyes with my hands and ran them down my face. Truth be told, downing those shots had me tired as hell. "Man, listen, this is the second time this has happened. Instead of telling me what the hell was going on from the beginning, she kept it from me. Damn, Amryn, and damn this fake ass marriage."

Zyanna placed her hands on her hips and glared at me. "Boy, if I was her, I wouldn't have told you, either. You've punched ol' boy in the face one time. What more do you want to happen? If she had to tell you, what would you have done?"

"Go find him and beat his ass," I truthfully answered.

River burst out laughing while Zyanna threw her hands in the air.

"It's a good thing she didn't tell you then. You would go looking for trouble," Zyanna stated.

"It's all good. I don't need her, anyway. We should have kept our relationship by the contract."

As much junk as I talked, I couldn't say I didn't miss the hell out of Amryn. She had a presence that was known whenevershe walked into a room. Now that I didn't have that, I felt the loneliness.

"What y'all going to do? Will she move out?" River asked, picking up a shot and downing it. At least someone joined the party with me.

"I haven't thought about it yet, but I'll think of something. One thing I do know for sure is I know I can't be with someone who is keeping something from me. I don't care how little or small it is. If her ex was calling her, she should have told me and not kept it to herself. That's something I can't get over," I uttered.

"Maybe it was for your own good," Zyanna countered. "You are ready to throw away something that made you happy. What sense does that make?"

I clenched my jaw muscles together, not wanting to go off on my cousin, but she was pushing me. "Listen, Zy, I know you mean well, but right now, none of what you are saying matters to me."

She smacked her lips and got up hastily from her seat. "Fine! I'm done trying to help you see you are making the biggest mistake of your life. Asshole!" She walked away from our section, fuming.

River only stared at me. "You know she's right, but I'm going to let you figure that out on your own." He got up, leaving me alone. He was probably going to find Zyanna.

I did owe her an apology, but right now, she could forget about it. Since River wanted to take her side and walked off with her, it was to hell with both of them. I knew I was doing the right thing, no matter how it made me feel. Since I was the one who broke things off with Amryn, I shouldn't be affected, but I was. When I thought about our fight, anger resurfaced, but I also hated the way she cried. As much as I wanted to go to her and pull her in my arms, I didn't. Then she left the house withoutsaying anything to me. That was an agony I hadn't expected to feel. She was the first woman I ever opened up to, and things weren't good between us. This is our second time getting mad at each other. This time, things ended between us. Would we ever be able to work things out? I'd have to trust Amryn. I knew if I couldn't, I doubted I'd be able to let this go.

At home, I was alone, and guilt cut me deeply. I stared around at the house and clenched my teeth together. The decorations that were up, Amryn and I did together for Christmas. Then we had a picture of us hanging on the wall that we took at a charity event. Damn, this was hitting me hard as hell now. I already knew that if Amryn were here, we would be doing something right now. I could remember a time when I drew a tattoo design, and she colored it in. We ate buffalo chicken dip with buffalo wings that night, too. Then, we ended the night with a candlelight bath that led to us tearing up the sheets. Damn, I missed the hell out of her. I was having too many mixed emotions swirling around in my chest. This cut me deeply.

I was depressedand had nobody to blame but myself. How did I lose my man and my best friend right before Christmas? I didn't care too much about losing Mimi since she flipped the script and turned her back on me. Since she got with Joel's cousin, she'd changed big time. When I needed her the most, she sided with Joel with her boyfriend. That was something I never sawcoming. She was at my wedding as my maid of honor. Now, who else did I have? Nobody — I was all alone.

I was held up in a hotel, not wanting to go back to my father's house. He'd probably ask a million questions about what was going on. Those were questions I didn't have the answer to or wanted to answer.

My cell phone rang as I relaxed across the bed, flipping through channels, trying to find something to watch. Nothing held my attention. The only thing on was Christmas movies, and I wasn't in the Christmas spirit anymore.

I reached for the phone that was on the pillow and checked to see who was calling me. Surprise hit me when I saw my caller was Zyanna. She'd sometimes call about an event, but I knew we didn't have anything until next year. With it being Christmas time, I thought we'd have something, but I was happy we got to rest a bit. I knew as a community they had festivals in Skyeville. I wouldn't be attending either of them. Without anyone to go with me, what would be the point?

"Hello?" I answered.

"Hey, girl. I'm calling to check on you. Levi told me what happened."

I had a feeling he'd confide in the two people he was the closest to — River and Zyanna. They probably had a lot to say about me.

"Yeah, we stopped talking to each other." I didn't have to beat around the bush, especially when it came to someone calling to let me know I was wrong.

"Yes, he told me, and I wanted to let you know I don't agree with the way he's handling things. Levi doesn't think when he does things. Once he flips out, that's it."

Zyanna wasn't telling me anything I didn't know already about her cousin. Levi was ridiculous when he was mad.

I sat up and yawned, covering my mouth out of habit. "Yeah, well, it is what it is. I am hurt by it, but I'll find a way to get over it." I got out of bed and went to the refrigerator to see what I had in there to eat. Hopefully, I had something in there. If not, I'd have to go out even when I didn't want to.

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