Page 127 of A Moment for Us
No. I know it’s not possible. I saw the ultrasound and know the truth. We lost her, and she’ll never come back.
I fight back the tears because I’ve cried so damn much.
Josh turns to me, his blue eyes find mine, and I reach for him, needing him to touch me, tell me I’m okay, and that we’re okay. It’s been a rough week, and I hate the distance that’s spreading between us.
His fingers tangle with mine as the doctor speaks. “See this here?” She points to an area. “That’s the baby’s heartbeat, and everything looks great. He’s moving around in there like he should be.”
The two of us exhale, and then Josh leans down and kisses my lips. “Thank God.”
“You’re sure?” I ask Dr. Locke.
“As far as I can see, you’re doing well and so is the baby.” She wipes my stomach. “I’ll have you come in each week so we can keep checking on him, but he looks healthy.”
Josh’s hand tightens. “I’m glad Delia and the baby are okay.”
She nods once. “I’ll see you next week.”
“Thank you.”
He helps me up, and I brace myself for whatever fight is going to come from my wanting to go back to work. He may have let it drop in front of the doctor, but I know better.
He doesn’t understand that I can’t afford not to have an income, and Josh forgets that he is living on his savings until the resort is up and running.
Josh keeps quiet on the ride home. The tension in the car is palpable. When we get inside, he finally says something.
“I don’t want you to go back to work.”
At least I was prepared. “Why?”
“Because there are too many variables.”
“Do you like having a roof over our heads?”
His head jerks back. “What?”
“I have to work. I have to pay for this house, my bills, and all that. I know you’re helping, and it’s been great, but you’re not exactly in the financial position you were before. I’m working so that we don’t end up having to move in with my mother.”
He runs his hands through his hair. “I have plenty of savings.”
“That doesn’t change things. I want to make sure that I have vacation time once the babies—baby comes. I’d like to stay home with him for a bit. Not taking all my saved time now will allow for that.”
“I just worry,” he says, his voice thick with emotion.
“I wouldn’t do anything to put us at risk.”
Josh lets out a deep sigh. “I know. Can you at least take a few more days? Just let me feel a little more comfortable.”
I catch my lower lip between my teeth and think about it. He’s not asking for a lot, but the longer I stay cooped up here, the less normal I feel. I’ve always worked, and while many people don’t enjoy it, since my promotion, I do. But he’s not asking for me to never work again, just take another few days.
“I can do that. I’ll take three more days, and then I’ll go back.”
“Okay.”
Chapter 38
Joshua
“We brought you a casserole,” Mrs. Villafane says. “Kristy baked Delia a cake too.”
