Page 98 of Filthy Love

Already the climax was boiling his brain alive.

A few jerks and he’d spurt too.

He had a few things to say first.Idiot. His brain growled. And his dick agreed. His dick couldn’t see past Gia’s panting breath and the leak of his pre-come oozing onto his fingers as he began the slow, pressured roll through his own fist.

“I burn for you. You gotta know that. I’ve fucked up too many times to think I warrant someone like you, Gia. No, let me finish.” He said when she geared up to speak. Her soft lips closed, she bit the bottom one through her teeth and he swore he could taste that puffy lip. “I won’t tie you to someone like me.”

“You’re being stupid—”

“Gia. I got my dripping dick in my hand with your greedy eyes all over me, I’m not gonna last a second more, let me say this.”

She nodded. Cheeks flushed. Nipples so goddamn hard poking through her shirt his mouth hungered to suck on them.

You’re evil. Worthless. You’re a cancer.

Inhaling hard past the self-condemnation, Hawk made sure he had her eyes. His heart stopped and restarted before he could make his tongue work. He wasn’t a talker by nature. The most he’d ever said was either to Rider or Gia. Funny how the Marinos’ siblings were the only two people he gave a fuck about. “I can give you this,” he indicated to his dick. What a guy, he internally sneered. Most normal men brought flowers and romantic dates on the river. Hawk offered his leaking cock. “Only this, little bit. For as long as you want it.”

He watched her chest inflate and hold before she let the air go. Her eyes, fuck him, he loved them on him. He felt burned all over. Burned down to ash and happy about it because it was Gia who scorched him. Like she was washing away his evil memories and giving him this piece of her heaven as a gift. She was so damn thoughtful and didn’t even know it.

Up and down, he fucked his own fist, his spine tightened at the very bottom, gearing up for one fuck of a come bursting out of him.

“Let me get this straight so I’m not misunderstanding. Sex only?”

He nodded. He could deal with that if it didn't ruin her fucking life with his cruelty and obsession. She could have her normal life away from him and he’d give her that.

“Not dating as we agreed?”

He shook his head. “You don’t want to date me.”

“That’s not for you to decide.”

He couldn’t find the right words. He was no good at it. He knew how to be mean and to hurt things. He groaned and gave himself an extra hard tug, taking his full palm the length of his cock and back down again to the base where he squeezed tightly.

Her pupils blew the fuck up and he felt it in his cock.

Hurting hard. He masked his grunt.

“So, you're saying,” Gia moved an inch closer and took all the oxygen away from him. God, she was beautiful.Incredible. The most serene woman. “That you do want to fuck me after all?”

Again, he nodded. Words wouldn't come. Not unless she wanted something filthy in return of how he wanted to mount her from behind and pound until she was blind, and he was dead. He could tell her a lot of that.

“But no dating? No holding my hand or cuddling me close or whispering in the back of a movie theater or having me cook dinner for you after a long day of scowling.”

Another shuffle closer on her knees and this time Hawk’s lids drifted down as he eyed her exposed pussy coming ever closer. His dick was so happy it tingled at the tip. He felt corrupt even doing this with her here. It felt wrong and good and he was so fucking messed up over the little bit of a thing.

“You're saying, you finally admit you want me ...sex onlyand there’s no denying it this time. That you want to bend me over and shove your rock hard ...”

Jesus fucking H Christ.Hawk about lose his damn mind, dropping his erection he palmed a hand to the back of her head, closing his fingers around her hair and placing the other one over her mouth. Curses fell like acid rain, and his chest caved in catching her sweet scent.

“Gia, for the sake of my fucking sanity do not finish that sentence unless you want me rammed into your throat until I choke you.”

And what did the little bit go and do? She hummed and swiped that naughty, ball-teasing tongue right over his palm and kept right on doing it while Hawk’s head swam.

Fucks sake. He was so screwed because she looked at him like she saw his darkness and liked it.

And now he couldn’t wait to get her home to Colorado.

With a resolve that was nothing club related for the first time in years.

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