Page 74 of Law Maker

Had he expected Penn to welcome him with open arms? Absolutely not. He’d faint had his most memorable and missed lover displayed even the slightest happiness in seeing him.

Facing the gray brick prison, his mind had many thoughts. No more the wiser why Penn was there, when Jay knew absolutely he would never get himself caught selling drugs.

Dismissed.

He still had the ability to make Jay feel insignificant with the slash of those incredible cold eyes.

Almost like Penn was bored as well as apathetic and the person on the other end of that stare alwaysfeltit.

He stewed and let those feelings in..

The ones he’d held at bay for years, fearing they’d drive him mad.

The one that got away. Such an ugly term and yet so true.

He wouldn’t allow anyone to speak nor whisper Penn’s name in his presence for a long time. Beating a man almost to death when he joked about it in Jay’s earshot. Everyone quickly caught on after that. Penn was dead to their circle.

Yet not truly gone.

Not to Jay.

Not even when he hated him for leaving so easy.

Oh, for weeks he thought he’d come back, tail between his legs, looking for new darkness to swim in. If there was one thing Jay knew for certain about Penn, it was his proclivities, appetites and whims. He catered to them for years, he fed the monster and the monster always came back.

And then he didn’t.

Jay didn’t pine.

Not for long.

He cast that time off like a snake shedding its skin and he thrived in other avenues.

But there he was, putting his head back in a noose that would never tighten. Alas. Because the noose was without emotion.

Why did he love the guy, he wondered?

He could have the choice of any delicacies.

Marco would whine that Jay only craved the unattainable. The forbidden fruit being the tastiest.

Penn was never forbidden.

But he was a taste Jay couldn’t shake.

His anger boiled through his lower gut.

Every person associated to Jay and his business licked his fucking boots. He was king of his castle and he was accustomed to that kind of subservient obedience.

Fall to your knees and suck my cock. They did.

Kill a man. They did.

Obey my every word. They did.

Not Penn.

Never Penn and for a long time, Jay was ensnared within that elixir of the one man who didn’t come to heel.

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