Sage is unforgettable, and every fiber of my being fights against it.
My evil little mind is on fire to take him right here.
Denial is part of being a Maverick.
We deny we’re not a dysfunctional fucking shitshow all the time.
My mother denies she hates my father’s guts.
Warm breath sweeps across my face, and his stare is unwavering.
Oh, to be that calm.
I still taste him in my mouth. Feeling how he commands a kiss, fights me for it. His hard body underneath mine. There’s not a single inch of skin that doesn’t want to drag him back into my apartment and start all over again.
Listen to his moans.
His pleading.
The kid likes to beg and curse like nothing else, and it drives me fucking wild.
But I can’t.
I can’t.
It has to stop now.
My teeth clench. My heart hurts. “God, I fuckinghate you, Fierro.”
The smile twisting his beautiful face just makes me feel like a bigger prick.
“That’s just it, you wish you did.” The gentle kiss he presses to my cheek comes as a surprise. It burns. “There’s not one thing wrong with you, remember that, Finn.”
When he walks away, I feel it and have to force my feet to stay in place.
It’s done.
I’m pathological because as much as I know it’s right, I still want to drag him back.
He’s a good guy and deserves better than what I can give him.
Whatever this craziness was between him and me.
It’s done.
C H A P T E R 20
Finn
“I expect to hear good news soon, Finn.”
My father, as always, at the head of the dinner table like we sit here every night as a cozy family with no fucking dysfunctional issues.
It’s bullshit. A sham in our own home. There’s no one to play up to, and yet he does. My mother too as she spoons mushroom risotto onto her plate and passes me the bowl. I take it and place it on the table.
He thinks I’m home for the weekend to praise him for his business deals going well. Mom encouraged me to come home. I catch her eye and I see something other than boredom. She pleads silently with me to go along with him.
There’s little choice here.