Page 28 of Hiding From Laughter

He just didn’t understand that yet.

“So the way I see it, you were worse to yourselfthan you were to me.” Shrugging, I let out a deep breath and did my best tosound sad about it. “You weren’t nice to my baby.”

Muttering something about me beingridiculous, he quickly quieted his grumbling as he buried his face against mychest. “You should’ve made me be better. I don’t have to feel guilty aboutthat.”

Ashton logic was always fascinating.

“So we’re in agreement that you need me tostep up and take control of your choices in situations where you’restruggling?” That had the smart drama queen going very still as his brainstarted to whirl. “Am I reading what you’re saying right?”

He wanted to say no, but he’d blamed mefirst, so he couldn’t.

“I…I don’t…” When he couldn’t figure outhow to get himself out of the hole he’d dug, he started to squirm. “I’m goingto say sorry again.”

“Nope.” Tightening my grip on the wigglynut, I made him good and stuck which helped his brain slow down. “I’m going touse your ass later. So that lovely mouth will have to wait for another time.”

Oh, the asshole Dom comment had him meltingand turned his brain off even more. Ashton tried to fight it and find aresponse, but he didn’t try very hard. “I…but I…”

He was too busy to manage a completesentence as he rubbed his face against me, doing his best not to moan. “I’ll…”

“That’s right. You’re going to be goodwhile I help you to remember that I’m going to be in control more and thatyou’re going to learn to depend on me more.” Yes. I liked that plan. “You’revery smart, baby.”

And he was wonderfully articulate as hegave anI’m fuckedgroan and huffed. “Yeah, I’m smart.”

Sarcastic too.

But I ignored it as I kissed his head. “Youare.”

He made more whines and sighs I mentallysorted through, but when none came close to a safeword sound, I kept going withmy confident, pleasant Dom tone. “I’m going to help you, though.”

No worries about that.

Before he could work up the courage to askwhat I had planned, I decided to explain because the apocalypse might comebefore he got to that point.

And at the very least we’d miss dinner.

“I’m going to get you dressed up as myhelpless boy tonight and then this weekend you’re going to spend even more timehelpless. I think depending on me for anything you need will help make animpression on you.” It’d also turn him on even if he couldn’t figure out whyquite yet.

“You…” The word trailed off as his brainwhirled like the thinking screen on the computer. He didn’t crash, though. Hejust eventually sighed and frowned. “You’re kind of evil.”

“Aww. Thank you.” Kissing his head, I madelong strokes over his back and made sure he didn’t hear any frustration orsecond-guessing in my voice. “I’m glad you seem to understand how importantthis is going to be to me.”

Mumbling something about me being a dick,he quieted the grumbling and pressed his face tighter against my chest. “Iunderstand.”

Possibly…but at the very least he’d graspedthat I was going to push him again.

“But I’m not going to make you talk aboutyour feelings or about being controlled.” I was fucking with him a bit…not torturinghim. That would come later. “So I have a few ways we can both help to rememberthat you don’t have to talk at all.”

He went still again, but my boy was toocurious to stay quiet for long. “You…you bought something.”

It wasn’t exactly a question, but I nodded.“Yes.”

Reaching over, I pulled a new grown-up-sizedbinkie out of the box I’d bought. “You can use this special toy to help meremember that you don’t have to talk or you can use your thumb. If you can’tpick or don’t want to pick, I’ll decide. Because tonight is about me takingcomplete control for a few hours.”

Ashton was utterly silent for several longmoments as he turned his head to peek over at the blue binkie. “And thisweekend you’re going to do it again.”

Still wasn’t a question, but I treated itlike it was. “That’s right. Friday night we’re going to grill and have drinksand I’m going to have fun with my partner or sub, but Saturday I’m going tostart the day with complete control.”

It would be a good way to help him figureout what his favorite parts were without him actually having to think aboutit…or worse…articulate it.

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