Page 21 of On My Side
even if i had saved your number, i doubt i would have used it because things feel WEIRD
I watch as the three dots appear and disappear and reappear as she, I assume, figures out what to say.
Audrey
i’m trying to figure out what to say
I laugh again before responding.
Ren
i figured
Audrey
sorry i’m weird… piper always says i’m embarrassing as hell and goddammit i think she’s right
Ren
okay well that’s not what i said. it just feels like you don’t want to interact with me
Audrey
it’s not that i don’t want to, it’s that i don’t know HOW to
like my therapist told me today my homework is to MAKE FRIENDS because i’m a friendless loser with abandonment issues that affect how i interact with people beyond a professional basis!!!!
and you were this annoying little kid the last time i saw you and now you’re not…idk. betcha regret emailing me now huh
Maybe I’m the problem, but I don’t know if I fully believe her.
Audrey
if i were you i’d tell me to go to hell and block me. but if you could not give up on piper… she’s my kid, yes but she’s also really incredible on her own and only the best of me…unless you consider how stubborn and angry she can get, but that’s besides the point.
Ren
i’m definitely not blocking you, or giving up on piper. can we talk in person?
Audrey:
…i’m supposed to take baby steps in friend making, talking in person seems like at least a toddler step
Ren
maybe sending this text was the baby step, and the next step is eating solids! and to celebrate you meeting that milestone, we should meet at queenie’s at 9 tomorrow. we can even get smoothies if you don’t feel ready for solids just yet
This might be the worst idea I’ve had in a while. Gettingcloserto the woman giving me uncontrollable amounts of lustsimply by existing?
Audrey
ok, we can do that
Ren
see you then
When I fall asleep an hour later, I dream of myself in assless chaps and a cowboy hat, and Audrey in Daisy Dukes and cowboy boots embracing in a field.
