There was a long silence. “I’m just worried that someone will hurt you again.”
“Yeah well. So was I for a long time, and I think that was hurting me more.”
There was another long silence. Followed by “Then I want to meet him.”
“What part,” I asked, “of fake boyfriend did you miss?”
“I didn’t miss anything. I especially did not miss the part when you said this was the most functional relationship you had ever had.”
Look at me being hoist by my own petard. “It’s still not real.”
“I pay my bills with songs written by a girl I can barely remember being. Real is not something that interests me very much.”
After twenty-eight years I’d reached the point that I only ever argued with Mum to see how I’d lose. “Fine. I’ll ask him. He’s working right now.”
“Does he live in Canada?”
“No. He lives in Clerkenwell.”
She made a Gallic noise. “You should come see me anyway. Judy and I are about to start a new season of theDrag Race, and we would like you to spill the hot tea on the queens for us.”
“I…” I glanced around my slowly de-pristining flat. If I carried on at this rate, by the time Oliver saw it, the place would be a tip again. “I’ll come over tonight.”
“Yippee.”
“Mum, nobody says ‘yippee.’”
“Are you sure? I read it in a phrasebook in 1974. Anyway, Judy and I will see you this evening. I will make my special curry.”
“Do not make your special curry.”
Too late. She’d gone.
I spent the rest of the day taking twice as long to do everything—since now doing anything in my flat required me to tidy up afterwards or else undo all my friends’ hard work. And before I’d even had the chance to milk it for Oliver points. I was just getting ready to hoy for Epsom when my phone rangagain.
“Sorry to call unexpectedly,” said Oliver.
I was glad I was alone so I could grin like an idiot without a running commentary. “Why, do you normally book your calls in advance? Do you call ahead? Are you like,Hi, this is Oliver, I’m just ringing you up to say I’m going to be ringing you up.”
There was a tiny pause. “I did not think through how silly that was going to sound. I’m just aware that I told you I was going to be working this weekend, so you might be busy, and I wanted to be respectful of that.”
“I Wanted to Be Respectful of Thatis totally the title of your sex tape.”
“Well,” he murmured, “I can imagine worse titles.”
“Can you? Can you really? Because I very much cannot.”
“St. Winifred’s School Choir Presents There’s No One Quite Like Grandma?”
My mouth dropped open. “You are a sick man.”
“My apologies. I was just trying to prove a point.”
“I’d say you’d ruined that song for me, but it was kind of pre-ruined by its own existence.”
“Lucien”—he suddenly sounded deadly serious and, despite the lesson I should have learned from the bad news text, I still felt faintly nauseous—“I called because I’ve done all the work I can on my case and I’d…I’d like to see you this evening. If that’s…agreeable.”
My heart stopped trying to choke itself to death. “Jesus, Oliver. Don’t use that voice unless you’re dumping someone or telling them their cat died. Also, did you just say…‘if that’s agreeable’?”