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To [Solace]: i’m trying to balance out all the times i was a total dickhead

To [Solace]: i know i’m asking you to keep trusting me

To [Solace]: when you’ve already had to trust me like loads

To [Solace]: like us meeting in the game

To [Solace]: when i thought you were a girl

To [Solace]: and then wanting to give it a go anyway

To [Solace]: even though i’ve never had a boyfriend

To [Solace]: and all that stuff

To [Solace]: and you’ve been great and i’ve just sucked

[Solace] whispers: Drew, that’s not true

[Solace] whispers: You’ve never messed me around about anything else and I could have been more honest about the…

[Solace] whispers: Not a girl thing.

[Solace] whispers: I just really thought that was going to be the thing

[Solace] whispers: And I was so happy when it wasn’t

[Solace] whispers: And that we just worked

[Solace] whispers: And that you liked me

[Solace] whispers: In, y’know, all the ways

[Solace] whispers: And it wasn’t weird

To [Solace]: i do like you

To [Solace]: in all the ways3

[Solace] whispers: So I was just really thrown when suddenly HoL was this massive thing

[Solace] whispers: And if it had been about me being a boy I’d have understood because you can’t change that stuff

[Solace] whispers: But it was like you were suddenly looking down on me for all the choices I’ve made about being me

[Solace] whispers: And that was really scary

[Solace] whispers: Because if the boy who really likes me thinks I’m a loser

[Solace] whispers: Then maybe I am

To [Solace]: i don’t think you’re a loser

To [Solace]: and i’m so so so sorry i made you feel that way

To [Solace]: i want to make you feel brilliant

To [Solace]: because you are

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