It ain’t no bear.
I crawl back into bed and place my head on the pillow Luther used, thinking about him telling me he’d be back tonight.
I want him to come back.
I want to see him.
My poor, broken heart wants to forgive him.
And my body wants his attention.
But I know I need to be careful.
I can’t just lose myself in the comfort of him. We need to talk.
Chapter 133
Luther
Baby Doll: Good morning. Again.
I droponto my couch as a bit of tension leaves my body.
I wasn’t sure she would actually message me. Thought maybe she’d take the time apart to realize she doesn’t want to talk to me.
I don’t want to talk to you. I can’t. Not yet.
Guilt worse than anything I’ve ever felt over lying to Joe clogs my throat.
I don’t want to break his trust too. But he was always just an excuse.
An excuse I used to make the decision for Kendra rather than making her choose between me and a future I thought she wanted.
Because if it was left to her, and she chose to leave…
She would’ve hurt me as much as I hurt her.
My fingers tremble as I type outI’m sorry.
I stare at the two inadequate words. Then I delete them.
She deserves my apologies in person.
Me: Did you sleep more?
Baby Doll: Yeah. I just woke back up.
More tension drains from my shoulders, but it’s just replaced with more guilt.
I think Kendra has been just as miserable as I’ve been. Which means she probably hasn’t been sleeping well either.
Me: I’m glad you got more rest.
Baby Doll: Same. But it took a bit to fall back asleep since I’d been laughing so much.
I smile at the screen. Glad I could give her a moment of levity, even if it came at the cost of me running for my life.
Me: You think it’s funny that your little friend chased me off the property?