Page 175 of I Can't Even Think Straight

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He knows how to handle me.

I’ve been jumping to conclusions,

like Nathan,

and letting my devil

get the better of me.

I take a deep breath in and out again.

I nod for Matt to continue.

“I was gonna say,

the future

may not be

too far away.”

“What do you mean?” I ask, this time.

“I’ve been rereading our messages,

especially the ones when I told you

what happened in the lunch hall.

You asked what I said to Kojo.

I felt so ashamed and embarrassed

that I didn’t say anything to him.

It got me thinking, and I reckon

it’s because I’m used to ignoring

those kinds of comments, you know,

from my parents and at church.”

“This isn’t news to me,” I say.

“You’re not the only one

who rereads our messages.

I understand your situation.

Well, I can accept it, at least.”

Matt squeezes my leg again.

“I haven’t finished,” he says.

“I’m ready to come out to The Boys.

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