Page 34 of Absolute Fulfillment
After checking on them, I made my way to my bedroom. As I expected, Rennix was in the shower and I immediately decided to join him. Within seconds all my clothes were pooled on the floor and I followed the steam, sure to close the bathroom door behind me.
When I opened the shower door, he was standing under the water, allowing it to cascade down his beautiful, chocolate skin. This man was everything and he knew it. He stood like a fucking god, no blemishes or mistakes in sight. He was perfect.
“You ’bouta keep letting cold air in here or come warm this motherfucker up with me?” He didn’t even turn around and look at me.
I licked my lips, stepping into the shower knowing damn well I’d have to do something to my hair in the morning if I did. That didn’t stop me and it damn sure didn’t stop him. Once I was within his reach, he pulled my body in, cornering me between him and the tile. Water was everywhere, but that wasn’t even the wettest thing in this shower room.
He dropped my hand and his hand found my neck. Then he licked my lips before making it nasty. I just knew this was bound to be a long shower.
“Where doyou see yourself in the next five years?” His voice cut through the silence while his hand moved up and down my abdomen.
I blinked a few times, staring up at the ceiling while he lay on his side gazing over at me. I felt his eyes…shit, I always did. “It’s hard to say because life has this way of changing course without your knowledge. You won’t know what course you’re on until you find a steady speed and no brakes.”
“Then fuck five years. What about five months?”
“Hopefully with you, unless you fuck up and I have to knock you upside your shit.”
He laughed. “Aight thug, don’t threaten me with a good time. But keep it a buck with me, five months.”
“I just wanna be happy, fulfilled, and not wondering what’s next. I wanna be so bursting and content in the moment that next isn’t even on my mind.”
He nodded, hand still moving in a repetitive motion. “I feel that.”
Then, before I could respond or ask him about his next five months, he was talking again.
“What can I do to add to that?”
My heart threatened to explode at that moment. My everything was about to explode. “To add to what?”
“To add to your fulfillment and happiness,” he stated flat out, like a real one. Like a grown ass man.
“Just keep being my friend… And my man, in one. Keep calling me thug instead of crazy when I’m being downright crazy. Keep being you.” I couldn’t hide or halt the smile on my face even if I wanted to.
“Bet.” His hand found my breast and cuffed it.Shit.
“For somebody who has never been in a relationship or wanted one, you do this communicating thing well.”
“Never met anybody I wanted to communicate with until you.” He leaned over and pressed his lips against the side of my face. A peck later he was back up straight and had yet to move his hand.
“What about you? How can I add to your life?” I wasn’t gonna ask about the five months because he always told me he didn’t plan that far ahead. Funny, the person who didn’t plan far ahead inquiring about plans.
“You already do. Your energy is a drug to me. I’on be needing shit else when I’m around you because you give me substance. You probably feel like this shit happened fast, and it probably did, but when you feel that feeling, you feel it. I felt everything about you that night when Donuts first opened. Why you think I kept you by me like I’d known you for years? I told you I just needed one night, but I ain’t mean it. One night wouldn’t have done anything but form a deeper hunger than the one I already had for you.”
“Why didn’t you say that the night you were at my house then?”
“’Cause we both know you wouldn’t have believed me. You would’ve thought I was just tryna get between your legs.”
“And what’s the difference now?”
“I ain’t gotta say anything to get between your legs. That’s my second home.”
I giggled as he dragged his hand back down my flesh.
“Say I don’t.”
“I’m not gonna contest that statement, because you do, and I’m okay with it. But all you’ve done is hype my head instead of telling me what I can add to your life.”
“Just stay you.”
