Page 73 of Furious
I need to talk to them together and tell them that I don’t think I can choose between them.
“Hey princess,” Ares breaks the kiss, his silver eyes boring into me. “I feel like I just lost you. Where did you go just now?”
“Ares,” my voice breaks as I try to find the courage to risk everything by telling the truth about my feelings and about the past. “You do have a real shot with me. I have feelings for you?—”
“You do?” he interrupts me. His lips curl up in a big smile, so uncharacteristic of him. “I have feelings for you too, Zara. I’m falling for you so hard and so fucking deep.”
My heart skips a beat. If only things could be that simple. I almost chicken out, but I owe him and myself the truth. “I’m falling for you, too. But I’m also falling for Chance and Lev. And I don’t know how to choose.”
Ares’s bright smile fades away. “What are you saying, Zara? Do you have deeper feelings for Chance or Lev?”
He’s taking this the wrong way. “No. This is the problem. I have deep feelings for each of you, and I don’t know?—”
“Ok. As long as that’s the case, I can live with it. For now. Can we talk about it another time? You’re obviously not going to make a decision today, and I just want to enjoy our time together.”
I don’t blame him. I shouldn’t have brought this up. Not today. I’ll give this a little longer. Hopefully, the guys will see that I love each of them with my whole heart. Loving all three of them doesn’t take away from my feelings. If anything, the fact that the three of them are close, it makes me love them even more.
My mind is made up. I’ll wait to discuss our relationship and it’s probably wise to wait to talk about the Ducati. I need to do that soon, but not right now.
“You’re right.” I say, feeling like a total chickenshit. “Let’s enjoy our time together. What did you have in mind?”
His smile is back in full force. “I still haven’t gotten to kiss every inch of your skin,” He whispers.
“You got pretty close.”
Ares shakes his head. “I kissed all over the front of your body, but I still have a long way to go with your back.”
“Is that what you were doing when I woke up?” I ask.
“It was. And I always finish what I started. So would you mind flipping back onto your stomach, princess?”
Just the idea of feeling Ares’s lips on my skin again is more than enough incentive to do as he asks.
“Hmm.” I relax, hugging the pillow and enjoying the velvety, slightly wet feeling of Ares’s mouth gliding down my neck and spine.
My stepbrother keeps moving the bedsheet lower and lower, kissing his way down to my lower back.
“Oh.”
I lift my head, turning around to look at him. “What’s up? Why did you stop?”
His fingers trace a pattern at the base of my spine and I immediately understand what it is.
“I had forgotten about that tattoo you got.”
I flinch at the thought of the winged heart with the name “Cal” etched in the center of it.
“I know,” I sigh “I’m sorry. If I could go back to two years ago, I’d slap past Zara for doing something so stupid. I was in a full rebellion against my mom and I’ve never been someone who does things halfway.”
“Go big or go home, huh?” Ares is still touching the inked heart.
“I thought about getting it removed after the way things ended between me and Cal.” I admit. “But getting tattooed there was pretty painful and I read that getting a tattoo removed hurts even more. So I decided not to bother with it. To be honest, I forget that’s even there, since I can’t really see it.”
Ares considers my words. “I guess so.”
“Does it bother you? I know how much you hate Cal. I do too, by the way. I’m just a big baby when it comes to pain. But if it bothers you…”
He scoots back up, rolling me so we’re face to face. “First off, you don’t have to change anything about yourself just to please me or anyone else, princess. If someone loves you, they have to accept you the way you are. Past mistakes included. Besides, maybe it was fate that you got that tattoo, after all.”
