Page 25 of Pyscho
Sadness etches in her eyes, and I grind my back teeth because I also see the hope that I’ll agree behind the sadness.
She doesn’t care about me or my future, only keeping Dad away.
What the hell happened to my mother?
Hayden chuckles, “That and we’re tearing your mother’s body limb from limb, I mean, she’s the one who swore she can pay back every cent.”
Mama flinches and looks down in shame but I don’t miss the small smirk which she quickly tries to hide, and I curl my lip at her.
“She’s being selfish!”
Raya’s words come back to me, and I know she’s right because these threats would be moot point with one phone call but Mama doesn’t want Dad involved but not because she doesn’t want to be with him like I believed but because since leaving. He’s given her everything she wants and if he pays her debt she knows she’ll lose the money he’s been giving her and she’ll need to return to him and have to go back to the doting wife which I’m beginning to see is a role she didn’t want to start with.
I mean, if she did, she’d at least give Dad the chance to try and make things right, something Jessica is beginning to do with Pitbull, which none of us saw coming after over nine years apart.
Mama eyes Hayden and I tilt my head over the look I can’t decipher. I heard the rumors. She and Dad had a one-night stand, and she came to him with a positive test after he blew his load down a club girl’s throat. I didn’t believe it because they always looked so loved up and even now, he wants her back, he’s fighting for her, but maybe, just maybe, Mama wanted the benefits of the cut.
Oh crap, was my mother a patch chaser?
Venom also mentioned that Dad cut down Mama’s spending two months before she left him, but again, I didn’t believe it and thought she left because he slept with a Cherri five times but knowing her spending limit has been increased again…
Why the hell would she get a loan for her medical bills?
Was I always wrong?
Did my hatred for my dad cloud my judgment of my mother?
I sigh and look back at Hayden and admit, “I think it’s best to get my dad involved,” and Mama gasps and snaps, “No, Ivy, I won’t have that you promised to marry him!”
Hayden tilts his head and admits, “I have to admit, I’m with your mother on this one, I have visions of you and me in the sack.”
I side-eye Mama to see her sigh in relief, and I narrow my eyes because, honestly, she doesn’t have a choice, neither does he.
I look back at Hayden and admit, “I’m pregnant,” causing his eyes to widen. “I’m roughly four weeks, so still see me and you in the sack?” I add, and he growls.
“You fucked someone else?!” he demands.
I snort, “Yeah, three days before I walked in on you and your father holding a gun to my mother’s head and no before you demand, I won’t abort because this isn’t just any baby, this is Psycho’s baby and imagine the pain he’ll put you through if he finds out you forced me to abort his child, I mean, you’ve heard the rumors right?”
Hayden’s face pales, and I smirk as Mama chokes behind me in shock.
I never did get the chance to tell her why I came around. I was a little busy saving her ass by selling myself for her.
Psycho, Blade, Fury, Viper, and Venom have all earned their road names for doing not-so-nice things, but both Fury and Psycho have the worst of the worst reputations. Cain, a prospect we grew up with who is in line to become an officer when he gets his patch, is up there with them.
When they flip, everyone knows to stand out of reach.
“You never told me you slept with him,” Mama whispers with hurt.
I shake my head and ask, “And when was I supposed to tell you, Mama? While you had a gun held to your head, or when I was agreeing to marry this man for you?”
She looks away, not replying, and I look at Hayden, who is focusing on the table. I wait.
He can’t want me, not now that I’m carrying someone else’s child.
Damn, teenage me would be bouncing up and down with excitement right about now, but adult me, yeah, she’s struggling to control her emotions.
I messed up, and no, I don’t mean by going unprotected with Psycho. Okay, yeah, that I shouldn’t have done, but what I mean is I shouldn’t have walked away that morning. I should have fought harder to make him understand that New York was because I didn’t want to see him with someone else. Even worse, I shouldn’t have walked out when Misty and he left the officers' hallway.
