Page 45 of Strictly Curious
Dad might be grateful to have me stay close, as well. He’d looked sad the day I’d gotten the acceptance letter. Sure, he had Tabitha and Garrett, but I was his biological child. I would have been straight up the coast, but it was still two states away.
“Well, at least you have things figured out, so that’s good. You’re not just staying here for this one, are you?” Jacob asked, a playful smile spreading across his face as he pointed at Garrett. I knew he was trying to tease me and I slumped further into my seat. I’d made that choice long before whatever this was between us started and I wondered what they’d think if they knew that.
“Wait. Really?” Tony asked.
“I don’t—I don’t know why, okay?” I didn’t want to deep dive with these two. They really were nice, but I was reaching the limits with my comfort level. I’d shared a lot today. Between telling Maisy about things and now going to dinner with these two, I was ready to get out of there. I wanted Garrett to myself.
As if sensing I was tapped out on the situation, Garrett turned to his friends, offering them a warm grin. “Well, thanks for dinner. This place is great and we’ll have to do it again.”
Jacob and Tony stood and offered us both hugs before we left and went out to the car. I missed the AC as soon as we were outside. It would take forever for the car to cool down and it was like a freaking oven when we climbed inside. I rolled down my window as soon as Garrett got the engine running. It didn’t help much, but it made it so I could at least breathe.
Unlike the drive to the restaurant, the drive home didn’t feel as stifling, despite the heat. There was anticipation now with a simmering tension of what we could do when we got home. I wanted him so bad. Sure, I was still a little mad, but now that I’d met his friends properly, they seemed more trustworthy and I prayed it wouldn’t come back to haunt us as it had with Toby.
When we pulled into the driveway, it was like I couldn’t get out of the car fast enough. The second the engine cut off, I shoved open the car door and rushed into the house. I probably came across as over-eager, and there were things we needed to talk about before things got carried away, but I was ready for this.
When the front door closed behind us, I suddenly found myself unsure again. My skin prickled with unease. I wanted this so bad, wanted this big step with him, to solidify what we were doing, but would he want it the same way I did?
“Garrett?” My voice shook.
He grabbed my wrist, pulling me into him, arms wrapping around my shoulders. My face pressed into his chest and I once more found myself feeling safe against him. It was amazing how his presence had that ability.
“We don’t have to do anything.”
It was cute how he wanted to keep reassuring me. I didn’t want to be talked out of this, but I needed to tell him what my expectations were. I needed him on the same page because I wanted to be as close to him as possible and I knew it was risky.
“I want it. God, do I. But, Garrett…” I took a shuddery breath because this talk was so awkward and I needed to put my desires out there. It wasn’t like what we were doing wasn’t stupid already, but I was about to ask him to do something else that was potentially even more stupid.
“What is it?” His hands ran up and down my back, making me shiver in anticipation, and he kissed the top of my head.
“I want to feel all of you when we do this,” I said, and hoped my message was clear. The way his hands stilled against my back led me to believe that he read my meaning loud and clear.
“That’s…” I looked up in time to see his Adam’s apple bob as he swallowed, processing my request. Having no barriers was a huge request, but I was no risk as I’d never had sex before outside of the awkward hand job attempts with Maisy. The way he went through condoms led me to believe he was always safe. “That’s risky, Ty…”
“Is it? There’s no concern on my end. Do you have doubts about yours?” I was genuinely curious now.
“No, there are no doubts. I’ve always used protection. I’ve even gone for testing a few times. But, Ty, that’s a big deal.”
“I know. God, I know. You can tell me no.”
Garrett lifted my chin and placed a soft kiss against my lips. I melted into the contact, fingers once again gripping tightly into the material of his shirt. I could get lost in these little moments. The simple bliss of his mouth against mine as he worshiped and adored me.
“That’s the problem.” His words brushed against me. I never wanted to pull away from our kiss. “I don’t think there’s a lot I can tell you no to.”
I surged forward, pressing my mouth firmly against his. His tongue worked its way between my lips and we stood there, fighting for dominance in the entryway of our home. It was a good thing our family was still away another couple of days or they were going to walk in on quite the show.
I wrapped my arms around Garrett’s neck and jumped up. He caught me as I wrapped my legs around his hips. We continued to make out in the hall before I realized we needed to move this to the room or we’d never get to the part I wanted the most. I wanted him naked. I wanted to be naked with him, feel his skin sliding against mine and the feel of him finally sinking inside of me.
Words weren’t needed between us as he carried me upstairs to my room. Holy shit, this was really about to happen. I was going to have sex with my stepbrother. I was going to lose my virginity to him and let him own my body in every way imaginable.
Our lips broke apart when we reached the top of the stairs and I slid down his body, groaning when I brushed against the steely feel of his erection. I turned to open the door to my room and Garrett crowded in behind me with his hands on my hips as he leaned in to give me soft kisses along my neck.
I couldn’t get into my room fast enough.
Once the door flew open, we stumbled through it, and I turned to Garrett. My gaze burned into him as we stood staring at each other, panting. My fingers itched with the need to touch him again. This was all so much more than physical need, and I had to tell him that. There was a reason I trusted him with so much ever since we were children.
This last week had not only woken me up sexually but had woken me up to what was right in front of me the whole freaking time. It suddenly made sense why things hadn’t worked out with Maisy or any other girl I had tried to date after her.
The epiphany suddenly hit me that Garrett had always been it for me, never realizing it was even a possibility until that fateful day I caught him and Toby. I’d never been attracted to a guy before, but now I wanted him in every way. He was mine and I was his. Everything I felt for him was real and I wanted everything he had to give.
