Page 61 of In You
I turn my head fast and press a kiss to her inner wrist as my heart summersaults in my chest. Memories of my abuse rise to the surface, and another layer of sweat adds to the first as I work hard to imagine Tamryn there with her hands braced on top of me, instead of who I do. She stays quiet, giving me patience and time to settle myself. It’s not a hard feat because her touch grounds me.
"No, honey, I…I need this," I admit in a small voice. "I really need this."
Oh god…does she think I'm weak?
Less of a man?
She nods, her eyes softening. "I do too."
Keeping my eye contact, she reaches down slowly, and when I drag another breath in again she doesn't jerk away this time,only waiting until my breath is level before going lower. The ragged sound that leaves me is embarrassing as her warm hand clasps my cock. The first time a woman's touched me there besides…her.
My head lowers to rest against her temple as I focus on her smell, on the hesitant feel of her hand taking her time with me.
I shudder as pleasure and fear race through me. When she strokes me gently at the same time her head turns and her lips nuzzle my jaw, I feel the nerves begin to leave when I realize she really does need this as much as I do. She shifts, spreading her legs and then guiding me to her wet warmth.
Pulling away to stare into her eyes, I tuck the head of my cock into her and watch as her eyes dilate even more.
A sharp breath leaves her, and her hand falls away to rest on my arm instead. I dip my head and pull her nipple into my mouth, relishing the feel of her arching under me and the tiny bite of her nails on my scalp and arm. I sink in a few inches and flinch as her heat surrounds me. "Fuck,you're tight."
"Caleb,"she gasps.
I nibble her nipple and then sink in more when I feel her gush over my cock, wetting the bed beneath us. She tips her head back on the pillow, squeezing her eyes shut as she wails loudly. I go completely still, sucking her nipple and giving her pleasure where I can. I lower my fingers to her clit to help, but she knocks my hand away.
"No!" she near screams, snapping her legs against my ribcage and then looping her arms around my head so tight my neck protests. Her heels dig into my ass, and I place my hand on her hip, rubbing.
I push against her hand testily, but she won't let me go.
I suck her deeper into my mouth, scraping her nipple with my teeth and then thrust the rest of the way in. She won't let me up to look at her, but the scream she lets out makes my ears ring. Ihave no way of telling if I'm hurting her, so I just stay still; I don't thrust, or try to rip her arms from my head. I hold us right here.
For forever, it feels like.
It's only when she begins to throb around me do I let go of her nipple. "Honey, I need you to let me up."
"Nooo."
The tremble in her voice causes me to fall just a bit more. I need to look in her eyes, see for myself she's okay. Connect with her.
"Baby, my neck," I try.
It works. She immediately lets her death grip go, and I raise my head slowly, seeing tears flowing down her face. She brings a shaky hand up and rubs her eyes, and I feel myself melt even further.
"Are you okay?" I ask softly.
She nods again.
"I'm going to go slow, okay?"
"Okay," she says in a trusting voice that does me in.
I pull my hips back. Keeping my eyes on hers even when her neck arches and her eyes go half lidded, and it's then I know it feels good.
I begin to thrust in a lazy rhythm, trusting my body to tell me when to adjust. Merely focusing on our connection. I place kisses all over her neck, her chin, her cheeks, her chest. But it isn't until a wince passes her face, and she squirms hard under me, that I speak again. "You know you can be loud, baby."
I give her a harder thrust, grinding against her clit. Again, and again.
She tightens so hard she almost bucks me off her, and I slide out part way, but I shove back in, pulling her knee even further back so I can grind as deep as I can. I can tell she's so close as a raunchy moan escapes her lips, but then her eyes go wide withsomething like fear and then she pulls against my hold, shaking her head.
"Come for me," I say against her lips, swiveling my hips and trying to make it good for her. "I can feel your pretty pussy sucking at me, baby. You can do it. Come."
