Page 4 of Mr. Big Mistake
Anything with alcohol in it.
“Look,” I said as I took a sip, “I just haven’t found someone I want to have sex with yet. I don’t want to have sex simply to say I’ve done it. I want it to mean something. I want it to be special. And I sure as hell don’t want to regret it.”
Roxy nodded. “That’s a good goal. Lord knows I regret my first.”
Karina’s lips parted in shock. “Wait, you regret Allen?”
Roxy shrugged. “I didn’t even get off. And, he didn’t give a shit about me. I figured that out later on.”
“But, the two of you dated for--.
“Can we focus? Just for once, can this not be about you two after the entire restaurant has been privy to my secret?”
Roxy grinned. “Hey, you’re the one that yelled it.”
“Because you two wouldn’t shut up about it.”
Karina walked her chair around the table and sat down beside me.
“You’ll know when the time is right, Kelly. Trust your gut, and nothing can go wrong.”
I licked my lips. “I know, I know. And that’s what I’ve been doing. It’s just that the guys I find don’t seem to be interested in anything but sex. Is that so much to ask? Is it too much to ask of a guy to want me for more than what I can put out?”
“Not at all,” my sister said. “I mean, that’s how you separate the douchebags from the genuine men who want what you want.”
I clicked my tongue. “Well, it would be nice to find one of those gentlemen.”
“I’m proud of you, you know?” Roxy wrapped her arm around me.
I rolled my eyes. “Just what every virgin wants to hear.”
“No, I’m serious. You’re taking control of your own sexuality. You’re pioneering a path where you exert full control over what you want, no matter what anyone else wants. That takes serious strength and guts.”
Karina nodded. “She’s right, you know. But, just make sure you’re doing this for the right reasons.”
I gave her a sideways look. “I’m sure I’m doing it for the right reasons.”
Roxy kissed my cheek. “Good. Because I’d hate for you to be doing this because you’re afraid of what it might be like.”
I snickered, but then her words settled in my mind.
“Wait, is there something to be afraid of?”
Karina shot Roxy a look. “Good going.”
Roxy scoffed. “What!? I just want to make sure she hasn’t pumped this up in her head or anything. I mean, the first time always sucks. Am I right?”
I whipped my eyes over to her. “Wait, it does?”
Karina hissed. “Will you shut up?”
Roxy hissed back. “Girl, now I’m worried about this.”
I nodded. “Yeah. And now you have me worried, too.”
My sister looked back at me. “Look, here’s the truth of the matter: adult relationships are going to require adult actions. You aren’t going to find a guy around here nowadays that isn’t looking to be intimate with someone they’re dating. Sexual compatibility is a crucial thing in a relationship.”
Karina butted in. “Though things can always be worked on and improved.”
