Page 67 of Knot All is Crystal
Every man I look at is at risk of his wrath because you do not covet what belongs to the King. The Queen may look like she has power from the outside, but that couldn’t be further from the truth.
Behind every king is the woman he shoved there.
I used to think I was strong. I never took any shit from an Alpha.
I know my worth.
I know I deserve happiness.
So yeah, I’m taking a risk, and I need to tell them all just how much of a risk it is to them.
They deserve to know the whole truth.
And maybe they’ll decide that it’s too much.
That I am not worth the potential for catastrophe.
The inevitable heartbreak and destruction.
But maybe, like Maverick, Gage and Emmanuel will be willing to take the risk.
I’m not a terrible person, even though I have had to do things that make me feel awful for Kieran. I am worthy of love.
I deserve a pack. A pack that will care for me and protect me.
Maybe even get me out of this fucking mess that I didn’t create.
My phone buzzes in my hand, jarring me out of my spiral. Emmanuel’s name shows on the banner on my lock screen. I need to tell him about Gage, too. Rip the bandage off.
Emmanuel
Wow, that is some news! I didn’t imagine I would ever meet a pack member. I’m excited to get to know him.
I don’t want to blindside you
But I have a prospective Beta as well
Huh
Alright, then
We’ll figure it out and talk through it, then, yeah?
Yeah.
Are you feeling up to meeting them? How’s your pain?
Try not to talk to me about my pain like I’m a patient, please
I wince. I know there will be a learning curve for me being with someone with chronic pain, especially since I met him in a healthcare setting. I never want him to feel like a patient. But I do want him to know I’m looking out for him. I want to ensure he’s comfortable and give him an out if he needs it.
Before I can tell him that, another message comes in.
I’m sorry. That was unfair of me. I appreciate you thinking about my comfort.
I’m okay with meeting for dinner tonight. I promise to be honest with you when I’m having a bad pain day, okay?
OK. I’m sorry, Alpha. I just didn’t want you to push through pain for me. This isn’t really time sensitive.
