Page 14 of Daddy's Good Girl
I cut him off with a swift chop of my hand.
“No, the sex is unbelievable.Unreal.Mind-boggling, and my balls are drained every night too.No, it’s something else.”
Logan stares at me with a puzzled expression on his handsome features.
“So what then?She wants you to accompany her to her friend’s wedding?Or she wants a diamond of her own?Or what...?”
I sigh.
“I’ve lied to her,” I confess in a tortured voice.“I told her that we’re using protection, but actually we’re not.”
Logan squints.
“What are you talking about?Are you poking holes in your condoms?But why?Do youwantto get her pregnant?”
I stare off into the distance, seeing nothing.
“Yes, I do, actually.Jenna would be an amazing mother, and I’d love to see her ripe and round with my baby in her belly.That’s why I’m doing it.”
“By poking holes in your condoms?”Logan practically screeches, his big hands gripping the edge of the bar.“Are you fucking kidding me?”
I shush him before shooting him a disgusted glance.
“Lower your voice, bud, it’s embarrassing being out with you sometimes.No, of course I’m not poking holes in condoms.What are we, in high school?No, I convinced Jenna to switch to the shot, but instead of administering Depo Provera, I’m administering a placebo.She’s just getting a syringe of saline.There’s no pregnancy protection.She could be pregnant even now, seeing how we fuck like rabbits.”
Logan shakes his head at me, marveling at my stupidity.
“Wow.Just wow.”
“I know,” I say in a tortured tone.“What the fuck am I thinking?Why am I doing this?”
“Whyareyou doing this?”he presses.“I mean, it’s fucking insane, looking to get a girl pregnant without her knowledge.Shit, bud, can you go to jail for this?I don’t know.”
I shake my head as my shoulders slump with defeat.
“I don’t know.Probably.But Idowant Jenna to have my baby.”
“But why the lies then?Why go around her back, when she trusts you with the shot because you’re a fuckingdoctor?What the hell?”
I shake my head again.
“Because of my past.You know that I never got to parent my daughter, Emma.Not really.Her mom took her to Florida when she was just an infant, and Emma only came back into my life recently.She’s twenty now.It fucking sucks, and I missed out.”
Logan stares at me.
“Yeah, but still.Don’t blame your problems on this poor girl.At least don’t take your problems out on her.”
“I’m not,” I say immediately.“Okay, I sort of am.But I want to be a dad, and fuck!I guess I’m not thinking straight.”
Logan shakes his head, his expression dumbfounded.
“You definitely aren’t because this isn’t going to work out well, my man.She’s going to get pregnant, and what do you think is going to happen?Girls don’t just “get pregnant” on Depo.They know something got fucked up along the way, and it’syou.How are you going to deal with this?”
“I don’t know!Tell Jenna the truth?”
“That you’re a hurt and injured little bunny because you didn’t get to be a part of your daughter’s life when she was young?Do you even hear yourself?That’s fucking insane.Your girlfriend’s going to abort, there’s no two ways about it.”
My shoulders slump again.
