"I love the sound of that. Goodnight Miss Ad Exec yourself." I hung up the phone and immediately clicked on Mason's name. There was no one else I'd rather share this news with. I felt like this was everything I had worked so hard on coming to light.Finally.I thought all New York did was take. But it was giving. I did have what it took to be here.
The ring on my phone seemed to echo. I pulled my phone away from my ear. Mason's phone was ringing inside his apartment. I heard him curse inside. I knocked on the door again. "Mason?"
A second later the door opened. "Hey, baby. Sorry, I was taking a nap." His hair was mussed up. But it didn't look like it did in themorning after he slept on it. It looked like he had run his hands through it to make it look like he had just woken up.
"Are you feeling okay?"
"Yeah." He crossed his arms in front of his chest. "What's up?"
What's up?I had been spending every night at his place for the past few weeks. What did he think I was doing here? I tried to give him a heartwarming smile. "I heard you were telling people at your office that you had a new girlfriend."
He laughed. "Who told you that?"
"Carter told Marie."
"Yeah? Well, I didn't say that."
"Oh." I bit my lip. What the hell was his problem? I needed to change the subject. "I have really good news." The cheerfulness didn't reach my voice. It sounded more likely a desperate plea for him to invite me in.
"Look, I'm not feeling very well. You should probably just head home. I'll call you tomorrow if I'm feeling better."
Hadn't he just said he was feeling fine a second ago? All the jittery excitement I had while talking to Kendra on the phone had been squashed down. Now I just felt like I wanted to throw up. He was pushing me away. Why was he pushing me away? I shouldn't have brought up the girlfriend thing. Of course he hadn't said that. He hadn't even said that to me. I took a step back. I didn't want him to see how much his words affected me.How him rejecting me was more important than the fact that I was about to get my dream job. I was so pathetic.
"Yeah. Okay. Well, I hope you feel better. Sorry I disturbed you."
"Not a big deal. See ya." Mason put his hand on the door.
I turned around and walked away from his apartment. It felt like he had slapped me. I couldn't even control the stupid angry tears that started to fall down my cheeks. Apparently he was not the one I should be sharing good news with. I wiped my eyes with my palms and silently cursed myself for making a sniffling noise with my nose.
"Bee?"
I didn't turn around. I didn't need this right now. I should be out celebrating with my friends. But instead, there was a panicky feeling rising to my throat. The same feeling I had gotten when I thought Patrick might be cheating on me. The feeling that everything was slipping away. I didn't like someone else having control of my emotions. I pressed the button by the elevator.
"Bee." Mason grabbed my wrist.
I quickly wiped my tears away and pulled my wrist out of his grip. "It's fine, Mason," I said without turning to look at him. "You want me to go, so I'm going."
"Hey." He pulled me against his chest. "I'm sorry." He ran his fingers through my hair. "I get cranky after I wake up from naps. I'm sorry."
His heart was beating so fast and I could feel the heat radiating off of him through his clothes. Maybe he was sick. And there was something really comforting about his reaction to my getting upset. He just stood there with his arms around me and didn't say anything about the wet spot my tears were leaving on his dress shirt. I'm sure he would want me to leave as soon as he saw my scary red monster eyes.
"It's okay. I'm just being silly. Go get some rest." I pushed on his chest, but he didn't release me from his hug.
"I want you to stay."
"Mason..."
"Please don't go." There was something strange in his voice. It made it seem like if I left he was scared he'd lose me forever. I breathed in his heavenly scent. I never wanted to be anywhere except for next to him. How did he not realize that?
"Geez, I don't know why I'm so emotional. I just had a really bad day at work. We had to watch Jenkins' stupid idea for this sponsorship. And my disgusting boss doesn't take me seriously at all."
"I thought you had good news?" Mason pulled back and looked down at me.
"Yeah." I reluctantly let go of his biceps. "Well, maybe. Apparently Jenkins' idea went terribly wrong..."
"The sex on live T.V. thing? Sword Body Wash is really pissed."
"How do you know about that?"