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“I …”
“Don’t need to say shit.”
“I just don’t know how I’m supposed to feel, and that bothers me. I’ve always felt something, Hodge, whether good or bad.”
“Then you don’t feel shit. You sit back and don’t think about it. Easier said than done, I know, but this is life, our life, Kemah.”
“And you’re sure you want me?” I step into her space, crowding her before lifting my hand to her face and cupping her cheek.
“If I weren’t sure, I wouldn’t be doin’ this for you, Kemah. I want you. That’s why you’re here, that’s why I’m keepin’ you. You need to understand that. I know this is all new to you, and I know that what they did to you about broke you, but you’re here now. You’re here with me, with us,” I reassure her, motioning around the room. Tears linger in her eyes as she slowly nods her head.
“Thank you, Hodge. Not just for this but for everything. Not many look past my weight and see the real me.”
“Oh, baby. I see you. I see all of you, and that’s why I want you. You’re perfect, Kemah. You’re everything,” I tell her before leaning in and pressing my lips to hers. I kiss her softly, gently, letting her know how I feel about her. I kiss her until she’s nearly breathless and panting, and then I kiss her more.
“You’re making me crazy,” she whispers against my lips. I smirk and pull her closer.
“That’s the plan. I want you on my face again tonight.”
“You like that, don’t you?”
“Havin’ you on my face? You’re damn right I do. The fuckin’ taste of your pussy and your juices slidin’ down my throat? Fuck, Kemah.” She laughs, and it’s the best sound I’ve ever heard. I can’t help but smile at her and watch as she smiles back.
“This is nice. I’ve never had this,” she admits.
“Had what?”
“Someone who actually talks to me and listens to me. Someone who will joke around and have a good time. My life wasn’t like this. I never had this,” she tells me.
“Well, you have it now. And I’m glad I could give it to you. Get used to it, darlin’. This is how it’s gonna be from now on. I just want to get this shit taken care of and for us to move on.”
“Is it that easy? To move on?” I shrug.
“It is for me. This is all I know how to be. I can’t change who I am.”
“I don’t want you to change, Hodge. You’ve given me so much just by being you.”
“And you’ve given me just as much, Kemah. There were days I thought I couldn’t go on or didn’t want to go on, and then you showed up. I don’t think you understand just how much that means to me.”
“Then I guess that’s it, huh?”
“What’s that?”
“We’re stuck with each other,” she laughs lightly. I pull her closer, wrapping my arms around her and holding her tightly.
“Yeah, baby. Looks like we are.”
Chapter 22
Kemah
I went shopping with Kiki after she had annoyed me about it for over an hour. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. I actually have fun with her, which is something I haven’t had in a long time. It was a nice break just sitting around talking and laughing while helping her wrap gifts.
“So, you’re staying?” she asks me.
“Looks that way.”
“Are you happy about that?”
