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“I didn’t even think about it like that. I’ve been so wrapped up in what I’m feeling …”
“And that’s fine. You have every right to think about it, but don’t forget about him. When a man takes a life, they lose a piece of themselves, no matter how hard they try to deny it.”
“You speak from experience?”
“Yeah, I do.” With that, he stands and walks away, leaving me alone. I rub my arms, feeling a chill before I shove to my feet and head toward our room. I shove the door open and find Hodge sitting on the bed with his head in his hands. At first, he doesn’t say anything, and that’s fine. I walk over and grab my sweatshirt, pulling it over my head.
“I didn’t want to hurt you. That’s not why I did it,” he finally says.
“I know that.”
“I don’t think you do. I think you think I did this to hurt you.”
“Hodge, I get it. I’m sorry I didn’t see it to begin with. It’s just hard for me. I know what they did to me, but I know that you didit because you care about me,” I tell him. Now he lifts his head to look at me, and I can see the look in his eye. The one that says he’s relieved I understand. He shoves off the bed and comes toward me, grabbing my arms and pulling me into his. His lips land on my neck, and a shiver runs through my body.
“This isn’t how normal people do things, but you have to know I’m not normal, Kemah,” he says before biting into my neck.
“You’re you, Hodge, and that’s all I can ask for.” His lips travel a line up my neck to my jaw before he makes his way to my lips. He kisses me so deeply, I get lost in everything he is. I want this man. Hodge has shown me so much about myself that I’ve never seen before, and I can’t thank him enough. But that’s not all. I need him. He makes me feel. He makes me believe I’m worth something when everyone else made me feel like I was worthless.
“Tell me you want me, Kemah.”
“Yes,” I breath as his lips move along my jaw.
“Say the words, baby. Say the words.”
“Hodge,” I moan as his hands begin to unbutton my jeans.
“Say it,” he demands this time. His tone sends heat to my core.
“I want you, Hodge. I want all of you.” He growls low in his throat before he finishes stripping me and then himself. When we’re both naked, he walks me backward toward the bed, allowing me to fall onto the mattress.
“Spread your legs, Kemah. Show me what you have for me,” he tells me. At first, I don’t want to, but then I see the dark look in his eyes, and I do it. I spread my legs as he watches me, and Ilisten as the groan leaves his throat. Hodge licks his lips before climbing on the bed and resting himself between my thighs.
“I’m gonna eat your pussy until your legs shake,” he warns before lowering his head and getting to work. His tongue flicks my clit, and I gasp at the feelings he instills in me. His tongue is like magic as he dips it inside me and twirls it around. Then he’s back to my clit, licking and sucking until my legs begin to shake, just like he said they would.
When I come, it’s like a fucking explosion. My body trembles as he pulls away and climbs up my body.
“Kiss me.” I lean up and press my lips to his, but he shakes his head. “Just like before, baby. Taste yourself on my tongue.” This time, I kiss him harder. We devour each other’s mouths until he pulls back and grabs his cock. He teases me, taunting me, then slams into me like a man possessed. He fucks me like I’ve never been fucked before.
“Oh God,” I cry out as he takes me faster, harder. He leans down and bites my lip hard enough to draw blood as I scream. Just as I do, my pussy clenches around him, and he jerks inside me.
“Fuck, Kemah! You’re makin’ me come already,” he growls as he thrusts harder. I arch my back as I scream his name, and he fills me up.
“You’re so fuckin’ tight,” he groans.
“You feel so good inside me,” I tell him as I reach up and run my hand through his hair. Hodge pulls out of me and lays on the bed next to me before reaching over and slipping his arm under my neck and pulling me into him.
“I know you hate it, Kemah. I know it’s not easy for you, but I’m gonna finish this,” he tells me.
“It’s just a lot to comprehend. This isn’t the life I’ve known.”
“I know it’s not, and I’m sorry. I just want to make everything right. I want you to be safe and feel safe.”
“I feel safe with you, Hodge.” He sighs, and I can tell he’s relieved by what I said. I know he worries, I know he thinks about the past a lot and what she did, but I’m not her. I don’t think I could turn my back on him even if I tried. Hodge has brought out something in me I love.
“I want to give you everything, Kemah. I want you to feel what I feel for you,” he says softly.
“What do you feel for me?” I ask, needing to hear what he has to say.
