Page 67 of Lucy
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
Lucy stomped in the kitchen like a toddler but I was ignoring her attitude and focusing on the fact that once I met Chase it seemed like he was a lot more than just a fucking friend like she assured me. I rested my hands on the counter and looked up at her. She looked gorgeous and my little head was trying to get the best of me but I refused to let that happen.
“Are you dating him?” I asked her.
“No, I’m not. I mean, not really. I’m fucking him though.”
“Dammit, Lucy. You told me you two were friends. I’m inviting this man into my house thinking he’s your friend and you’re really screwing him?”
“It just kind of happened, Abel. It wasn’t planned and we were just friends at first.” My throat felt tight listening to her explain the fact that she was drifting away from me. I thought she didn’t care. I thought this was another one of Lucy’s moments where she wasn’t thinking about anyone but herself then I saw the tears.
“Abel, he makes me feel like it’s possible to be happy without being in love with you.”
A punch straight to my fucking heart.
Silence fell between Lucy and I. She looked down at her hands and cursed. “I really need a drink,” she sniffled.
“I’m not standing in your way, Luce. I need time to adjust though.” I ran a hand over my face and stared at her. My beautiful Lucy.
“I’ll always love you, Abel. I can’t let that love run my life anymore and neither can you. This is what we wanted right?” She took a step closer to me and I could smell her perfume.
“Dammit, why are you so beautiful?” I pulled her close to me but she made her body go rigid before I could pull her in completely. “This is what we wanted. We can do this, Lucy.” I had to say it for myself as much as I had to say it for her. “You feel safe with him?” I asked of the giant sitting on my couch in the living room.
“Yeah, I do. He’s a really good guy, Abel.” She smiled but then her face turned stormy like she was fighting her next words. “I told him about us.” Her voice was so quiet and small I almost didn’t hear her.
“What?”
“I told him about us, Abel. I had to. I’ve never been with anyone but you. I want me and Chase to be serious. I want it to work and if it’s going to work then I had to tell him about us.”
“What the fuck, Lucy? Why didn’t you tell me? Now I have to have dinner with him and sit right across from him knowing that he knows my deepest fucking secret. He knows something that not even Nora or Mom and Dad know.” My voice was getting louder even though I tried to control it.
“I had to tell him.”
“Why? Why did you have to tell him? I haven’t told Lauren and I’ve been with her for seven months.”
“You don’t love Lauren.” Lucy’s wind was starting to howl and I could feel the charge in the air around us.
“Do you love Chase?” The words choked coming out. Lucy held my gaze. Strong. Defiant.Love.
“Yes.” It broke her down as much as it did me. Instead of being pissed though, I hugged her. “I’m sorry, Abel.”
“Sorry for what?” I sighed. “We painted ourselves in this corner and it’s going to be sticky getting out. There’s no handbook for being in love with your sister that’s not your blood sister but you were raised that way.” She chuckled but it was a pained and confused sound. “I will always love you, Luce. I will always wish things were different.”
“Me too. There are no mistakes in the universe though. Somewhere in a parallel universe we’re happy and we have the twins and we’re married.”
“Do we have a dog?” I asked, rubbing her fingers with my thumb.
“Yes. And a cat. I don’t drink whiskey, I drink lemonade and we have twin boys.”
“Is this a parallel universe or a make-believe one?Lemonade?” I laughed and Lucy hit my stomach.
“Are you mad at me, Abel?”
“Yes. It’s for selfish reasons though. Maybe you’re right. If I love Lauren, I should tell her about us.”
“No. Not her, Abel. I swear I’m not being a bitch but she doesn’t deserve to know something so intimate. She’s a fucking beak-nosed bitch. She’d use it against you. Against us.”
“What is the difference between Chase and Lauren?” I asked, my arms folded. Lucy paused and light, airy laughter rang through the house. Nora was having an amazing time with Chase.
