Page 63 of Capacity
I rubbed the back of my neck and held her gaze. “Lumi, I’m sorry for the way I snapped at you when you found the liquor. I shouldn’t have lost my cool like that and I should have listened to you because you were right. I didn’t need to have it in the house. I came so close to drinking it today and all I could think about was you.” I took her hand in mine and rubbed her knuckles with my thumb. I saw chunks of her resolve falling away and I worked to tear down more. I needed her forgiveness.
“I don’t like how tense things have been between us this past week. I should have swallowed my pride days ago and told you I was wrong. I wasn’t ready to see it yet. I had to come face to face with my own demons to understand what you were trying to tell me.” The truth made a desert of my mouth. My tongue was sand.
I searched her eyes for any hint of understanding but she was purposefully being tough to read, staring off to the side. When she did look straight at me, I saw the understanding I was searching for. She couldn’t hide from me for too long. I knew her more than I realized.
“I know you needed time to work things out on your own, Knight but the way you acted hurt me. The fact that you were okay with us leaving things the way they were pissed me off too. We’re supposed to be in a relationship. I know neither of us was exactly ready and we didn’t have the capacity to open our hearts but we did. When you open yourself to a relationship that means you open yourself to someone else caring, someone else fussing after you. You open yourself to someone else calling you out on your shit. It doesn’t feel good but it’s necessary.” When she wet her lips, I couldn’t help myself. I cupped her cheek in one hand and bent down to kiss her.
I pulled each one of her lips into my mouth and groaned at how sweet they were. She turned to butter and melted against me. For a moment, all our issues evaporated into nothing. All that existed was us.
When she pulled away long enough to break our kiss, I heard the pounding of my own heart. It was furious and steady. It was the sound of determination. I never wanted to ignore Lumi that way again. Every cell in my body was sorry.
“Did you drink? Is that why Terrance is here?” She pointed toward the living room with her chin.
“No, I didn’t drink. I came pretty fucking close though. That’s how this happened.” I wiggled my stitched up fingers at her. “I did open the bottle. I poured myself a glass and brought it to my lips but I couldn’t fucking drink it. Not because of you, even though I heard you in my head, it was because I didn’t want to throw away months of sobriety. I didn’t want to slip back into the abyss I climbed out of.
I threw the glass in the sink and it broke. You know the rest. I poured the whole bottle out. It’s gone. The way it should have been in the first place.”
Lumi ran her fingers over my lips then pulled me down to her mouth and swept her tongue along my bottom lip before diving deeper. Her arms draped over my shoulders and my hands circled her waist. My dick was hard in seconds.
I wanted to tell her all about my trying day but that could wait. It had to wait because I needed Lumi. I needed to be inside of her. I needed to feel her coming all over my cock while my name poured from her lips.
Shit, I forgot Terrance was in the living room.
I didn’t care though. I never cared who was around when I was with Lumi.
I picked her up and sat her on the counter so I could stand between her legs and pull her against me. I wanted her to feel how stiff my dick was for her. I wanted her to know what the hell she did to me and how much I missed her. I missed our connection.
“Knight,” Lumi breathed against my mouth. “Terrance is in there.”
“I know,” I groaned, resting my forehead against hers. “I’ve missed you so much.” I slid my hand under her shirt and squeezed her full breasts. I drew loops around her areola until her nipple stiffened.
“I’ve missed you too, Knight.” She brushed her nose against mine.
“I need to fuck you,” I muttered against the crook of her neck. I grabbed her hips and pulled her against my erection. “I need to feel like you’re mine again.”
“I never stopped being yours,” she whispered while stroking the side of my face.
“I still need to feel you,” I told her, moving to her other breast.
“So guys, I’m gonna head out because obviously you two need time alone.” T’s voice sounded from the foyer. I hadn’t even heard him move from the damn couch.
“I’m sorry, Terrance,” Lumi’s laughter floated in the air like rays of sunshine.
“It’s cool, Lumi. Knight missed you. I’ll catch y’all later.”
“Thanks for stopping by, T.”
“No problem, man.”
Once the door closed behind him, Lumi and I became a tangled web of tongues, arms, legs, and fingers. We kissed and sucked and poured into each other. The heavy weight of desire and hunger pushed me to my knees. I pulled her leggings off and studied her pretty pussy through the transparent scrap of fabric covering my meal. She was so wet the cotton panties molded to her thick lips, like a map pointing to where I needed to go.
I pressed my lips against her and groaned at the way her pussy smelled. At the way the wetness felt gliding across my skin.
I found her clit through her panties and rubbed it with my fingers first before pulling them off so I could spread her pussy lips apart. I pulled the swollen, sensitive nub into my mouth and sucked until her movements became jerky and her noises were high-pitched staccato melodies.
“Knight! Oh god, please don’t stop,” she whined, fucking my face. I grabbed her thighs and pulled her right to the edge, eating her pussy until her sweet honey juices dripped from my chin. Her nails scraped my scalp while she rolled and rocked her hips against my mouth. She wasn’t shy about using my tongue to fuck herself until she came and she was a work of art when she unraveled.
I latched onto her stiff clit again, sucking it between my lips and humming against it while she shivered and shuddered, gripping the hair at the base of my neck. She became sugar puddles on my tongue and rain on my face. I didn’t need liquor when I could get drunk on Lumi with no hangover in sight.
