Page 94 of Untouchable
Her heart started to hammer as she realized that he wanted her back. He’d made a step here that she’d never expected him to make, putting aside his pride and resentment to come to her.
It made things easier for her in one way. And so much harder in another. This was what she’d needed to happen, but it was also concrete evidence that Caleb felt for her so much more than she’d ever believed was possible.
He had fallen for her. All the way. So much so that he had changed.
She nodded. “Now is okay. I was thinking about… I was trying to figure out a way to see you again myself.”
Caleb’s eyes softened in what might have been relief, but the expression was so fleeting it was hard to pin down. Kelly glanced back at Reese, who was sitting on the couch, watching them with open curiosity.
Kelly cleared her throat. “Maybe we can take a walk.”
“Sounds good to me.”
She put her shoes on, waved at Reese, and then closed the apartment door behind her. They stood in the middle of the hall,staring self-consciously at each other. Until finally Kelly said, “How did you know I was here?”
Caleb raised an eyebrow, answering her without words.
“Right,” she said, realizing the answer to her own question. “You have a team who is very good at locating people. Have you been having me followed this whole time?” As she asked the question, she felt a little tremble of fear.
“No. I was angry at first, and I thought I would just let you go,” Caleb explained, nothing emotional or dramatic in his voice or on his face. He started to walk down the hall, so she fell into step with him. “But then I discovered that I couldn’t.”
“Couldn’t what?” Her mind was aching, trying to find the right words to say to him.
“Couldn’t let you go.” He stepped into the elevator and watched her as she followed. He didn’t look at all upset, and his hands, his fingers, were relaxed at his sides.
“Oh” was all she could think of to say.
“I’m not trying to rush you. I would only like to know if there’s even any hope.”
Despite his cool composure, Kelly knew exactly how hard that had been for him to say. It went against his nature—against the way he’d learned to deal with the world—to make himself vulnerable enough to even ask for hope.
She wished she could reward him, give him some sort of consolation. But there was far too much going on here. “Hope?” she asked faintly, still stalling for the right words.
For the first time, Caleb’s face twisted just slightly. “So you don’t think there is any? I thought you said you were thinking about talking to me.”
“I was. But, to tell you the truth, I don’t really know what to hope for. Everything seems to be so… so twisted up between us. I know it’s my fault,” she added hurriedly since he wouldn’t knowmost of what had twisted things. “And all my mess from… from my past. But still, I don’t know.”
The elevator had reached the ground floor, and they both got off. They stood facing each other in the lobby.
“I know it was all too messy,” Caleb replied, his voice a little bit thicker. “But I don’t think it has to be. You feel the same way I do. I know you do. The last time we were together meant something. You can’t pretend that it didn’t.”
He looked so different than she was used to seeing him, and it wasn’t just the setting. In some inexplicable way, he’d lost some of his impenetrability. Some of his untouchable distance.
It wasn’t that he looked tender or sappy or loving or weak.
But, at the moment, he looked almost… young.
Closing her eyes, she said, the words nearly a plea, “Caleb, it did. I do. But it’s so much more complicated than that for me.”
If she were smart, she wouldn’t be putting up any resistance. She knew she needed to get back together with Caleb if she ever hoped to uncover the truth, so none of this was helping her agenda.
But she had to be honest with him. As honest as she possibly could.
He took a step closer to her but didn’t move to touch her. “It’s complicated for me too. I know I’m not the man you might want me to be for a serious relationship. But I want you so much I don’t care. I want you, Kelly, and I can try to change if you need me to. All of me is yours.”
She was almost choking as she heard the words, which touched the deepest desires of her heart. She swayed on her feet.
Caleb raised a hand and cupped her cheek. “Are you going to faint?”
