Page 119 of Cloudless
Warm fingers graze the delicate skin of my stomach as he digs into the hem of my shirt. His hardness feels like a steel rod pressing against me.
My heart beats like a kick-drum in my chest as I say, “Wait!”
My heartbeat echoes in my ears as his movements halt, and his eyes flick to mine. “We don’t have to do this. We can stop.”
I shake my head as I grasp his fingers so tightly it has to hurt. “No, that’s not why I wanted you to stop.”
His brows furrow as his worried eyes search mine. “Then what’s wrong?”
I can barely find my words for the butterflies taking flight in my stomach. “Nothing’s wrong. I just want, noneed, to say something first.”
I hate the worry clouding his eyes as he nods. “Okay.”
I take a deep breath as a splitting smile takes over my face. “I love you, Trouble.” His eyes flare as my words register. “With everything going on, it’s never felt like the right time to say it. I wanted this perfect, special moment to tell you what I’ve been feeling for a while now. But if I’ve learned anything these past few months, it’s that nothing is guaranteed in life. There’s no promise for tomorrow, Kam. And I couldn’t waste another second of this life without you knowing how I feel.” My finger over his lips stalls the words threatening to escape his mouth. “You don’t have to say it back. I just needed you to know.”
His smile grows under my finger. “Move your finger, Lila.” My finger slides from his lip with a satisfying pop. Chills erupt across my skin as his warm fingers glide along my back, under my shirt. “I love you, too, Sunshine.” He shakes his head as his smile grows. “You stubborn woman. If you would have given me a few minutes, I would have said it first.”
Now it’s my turn to sport furrowed brows. “You were going to say it first?” I poke him in the chest hard enough to bruise. “And I amnotstubborn.”
He nods as his smile shines brightly in his eyes. “I was really looking forward to saying it first, too.” The warmth from his laugh flows through my body to settle between my legs. “And you aredefinitelystubborn. You might not be on Ellie’s level, but you’re still stubborn as hell. You would have to be in order to fight the way you have.”
I shake my head as my gaze falls to our feet. “I’m not doing anything special. Anyone in my position would do the same.”
His calloused fingers dig into my chin to force my eyes to meet his. “You couldn’t be more wrong about that. Most people in your position would have run as far as they could. But not you. NotmySunshine. No, you had to prove everyone wrong. You had to prove you can keep your kindness in the face of adversity. You had to prove that strength is found in the most unlikely places. And you look damn good while doing it.” His eyes soften. “It’s amazing to watch.”
His face turns blurry from the tears brimming my eyes. “Take me to bed, Kam.”
His soft eyes turn to molten lava in seconds. “It would be myhonor.”
CHAPTER 58
USE YOUR WORDS
KAM
My hands struggle to stay gentle as I dig my fingers into her waist and lift her. Her weight feels so right in my arms.Shefeels so right.
My lips greedily search for hers as I carry her the few feet separating us from my end goal. Her back conforms to my mattress as I gently lay her down, just as her soft lips fit perfectly against mine.
Her soft breaths flow over my mouth as I lean back to look at her. So I can take in this moment and sear it into my memory for the rest of my life. So I can takeherin.
Her blonde waves fan around her on the comforter to create a halo fitting for an angel. A beautiful blush creeps over her cheeks as her chest rises and falls in a beat that mimics my own. “You are the most stunning sight I’ve ever seen.” My cock grows with her blush. “Worthy of becoming art on my wall.”
Her shy smile can’t hide the heat in her eyes that threatens to consume me with a ferocity so foreign I can hardly breathe. “You make me feel beautiful, Kam.”
My breath stutters as her words wash over me. “That’s because youarebeautiful. I just wish you didn’t need my words to make you feel beautiful. Maybe one day you’ll feel beautifulwhen you're standing alone in front of your mirror.” Her sharp intake of breath sends another rush of blood between my legs. A smirk pulls at my lips as I run my nose along hers. “Until then, I’ll tell you every day until you have no choice but to believe me.”
She shakes her head as I settle my forearms on either side of her head. “It’s not just your words, Kam.” Her smile grows as I raise my brows. “It’s the fire in your eyes. It’s the care you make clear in your touches. It’s the love you show in every word you say. So, no, it’s not just your words. It’severything.”
I shift so my hardness can settle on the apex of her legs. “Do you feel what you do to me?” She nods as her pupils dilate. “Do you feel how crazy you make me?”
Her eyes blaze molten lava and her fingers tighten in my shirt to the point I’m sure she’ll rip the fabric. The tendons in her neck strain with coiling tension as a breathy whine leaves her kiss-swollen lips. “Kam.”
My lips brush against hers with every word I speak. “I know what you need.”
My calloused fingers feel unworthy of the goddess before me. That doesn’t stop me from finding the seam between her shirt and leggings. It doesn’t stop me from looking at my fill as I run a thumb over the scant inch of bare skin I yearn to trace with my tongue.
My fingers slide up the soft skin of her stomach to push aside the fabric hiding her from me. With every inch of exposed skin, it becomes harder and harder to breathe. To eventhink.
