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I'm so angry and out of control that I almost slip while walking down the small stairs on the way from thebackyard. Layla quickly catches me, grabbing my arm, but the ground is so slippery that she falls.
I pant, my eyes wide in shock. I'm gripping the small railing with my other hand. I'm alright, but Layla...
She fell, and there was nothing I could do to prevent that. She was protecting me.
"Ouch," she hisses in pain.
Blood rushes to every vein in my body, and my heart feels like it's about to burst out of my chest. It's just a small step, so she can't be injured badly, but it doesn't make me less panic.
"I think I just sprained my ankle," she says, sounding like she's trying to hide her pain.
I explode. "What the fuck did you think you just do?" My voice booms, I can even hear her gasp in shock. "Did you even think before you did that? I told you countless times to fucking leave me alone. Did you ever fucking get what I said? For fuck's sake, just go away."
My chest rises and falls because of the way I speak, so brutally and mercilessly.
The sound of raindrops and my heavy breathing is the only thing that we can hear until her cries break.
"Why are you doing this?" The pain in her voice lets me know that my words were like daggers to her heart.
My fist is shaking as I hear her crying. Her sadness feels like knives slicing my soul.
I grit my teeth, holding my fucked-up emotions so that I wouldn't create more damage. I walk off, leaving her alone.
Chapter 19
Layla
When I woke up this morning, Kellan was already gone.
After what happened the day before, we hadn't spoken to each other again.
Last night, Kellan asked Zoe to bring me dinner, and he only came back later after having his martial arts practice. We went to bed in silence, and I was trying so hard to keep my tears from falling.
I thought that he would slowly let me in. I thought that I could be closer to him and understand him better. But just as I thought that he had broken down his walls, he returned to the way he'd been before.
It pains me to know how much he's been suffering. The closer I get to him, the more I can feel his pain and the more I can feel the man behind that cold exterior.
His words hurt, but I know that it's just a camouflage to hide his pain. I've promised myself that I will make him see the good things in life, that he can still be happy despite his disability, and that he's worth it.
After I finish drying my hair, I plop myself on the bed.While I'm wondering what I'm about to do today, someone knocks on the door. I open it and find Zoe standing before me with a warm smile on her face.
Spending a day with her is exactly what I need right now, so my heart is filled with relief.
"Morning," I greet her with a cheerful smile.
Zoe and I happily hook each other's arms, walking down the hallway. She leads me to the basement where she lives with Stas.
When we arrive at her home, Stas greets me. "You're finally going to have your first tattoo, aren't you?"
His question startles me, and as soon as he sees the panic on my face, he laughs.
"Don't worry,” he says. “It won't hurt that much. Do you want me to do it for you? Or do you want Zoe to do it? It's your choice."
I snap my head toward Zoe, who bites her lip uneasily and scratches her temple. She takes out a note from her pocket and writes to me.
I'm sorry. I know that you might not want it, but today is the day you'll get your tattoo. Kellan said so. It's an order.
My eyes widen in shock. I don't think that I'll ever be ready for a tattoo. I heard that it's going to hurt, and I'm not planning to get my skin inked.
