Page 42 of Shadowing My Dreams
“I want to be with my love – with Drew.”
“It’s what I want to.”
“What do I do? I’ve never possessed someone before. Please tell me it’s not like the Exorcist.”
“No,” I actually laughed. Maybe I was going insane, but their second chance at happiness reminded me of my own. “All you have to do is slip inside me. I have to let you, and I’m willing to. But you both have to promise to leave once we’ve slipped through. Understood?”
“I will do whatever is needed to be with him again.”
I held up my other hand and gestured for him. I cleared my mind and tried not to be scared. “I’m willing, Isaac. Let me free you from this place and your pain.”
Have you ever tried to squeeze through a space that you knew you would never fit into? That’s what I felt as Isaac took possession of my body, and the room faded back into color. I saw him looking at the world through my eyes. I felt the tear as it fell down my cheek. I felt him laugh – heard him laugh as he turned to stare at Archie, but only saw Andrew.
“I’m free.”
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Archie
“Drew? Andrew?” The voice was Jack’s, but the words were not.
“It’s me. Is it really you?” My hand reached up and stroked Jack/Isaac’s chiseled face. But it was Drew who touched him. It was odd to be a stranger in your own body. “Zac?”
“It’s me… It’s strange to be in here. It feels so… I missed having a body, and I didn’t even realize it.” He laughed. “I can’t believe we’re together again.” He reached up and took my/Drew’s face in his hands. There was something so sweet about this that it felt like watching one of the sweet and saccharine Hallmark movies through my own eyes.
“After all these years, and in the same room where we used to sleep as I curled up on your shoulder.”
“The same room where I died. The party was over… No wonder you left.” Jack/Isaac glanced quickly around.
“It was too much.”
“I know… I…” Jack/Isaac stopped and frowned. “Just a few minutes more, please. The alive person inside me is whining about me getting the fuck out of him.”
“His name is Jack, and he cared enough to come get you so we could be together again.” I/Drew took Jack/Isaac’s hand and held it tightly. “They’re good people.”
“Still? After all that we’ve been through – you still have a heart of gold?”
“I’m still me. Losing you took that away for a while, but I found myself again. Now I’ve finally found you.”
“I’m sorry that I…”
“You do not need to apologize for the past, Zac. I forgave you the moment I said I did all those years ago. I never held onto it. We were young, and it was a different time. So much has changed. Did you know that gays can get married now?”
“Seriously? I sat up there and wondered if Reagan had killed us all for a very long time.” Jack/Isaac’s eyes narrowed as he thought about the past.
“It was a long time ago now. I wish you could see how the world haschanged. Not all of it was good, but so much of it was.”
“When did you die?”
“Time had no meaning after I died.”
Five years,I thought, knowing that Drew could hear me.
“Oh, sweet Archie said it was five years ago.”
“You got old. I’m so glad.” Jack/Isaac slid his hand on my/Drew’s thigh.
“My face sagged. I wasn’t a fan.”
