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Sean cracked a smile. “They’re easy to deal with on the phone, so I won’t complain.”
“I’ll see you tomorrow.” Heading toward the front of the office, I mentally started my to-do list for the next day. Unfortunately, that didn’t keep my mind occupied for long.
By the time I was out of the parking garage, I was back to thinking about our date…and what might happen after.
I’d texted Dare for a few minutes at lunch. He’d been excited for my date with Ryan, but had also hinted that dessert might be just as fun as dinner. Unfortunately, I hadn’t been able to get him to elaborate.
Did dessert have something to do with Ryan and me, or was there something I was missing?
Ryan had been the one to get the instructions and he was being just as cagey as Dare, so it was entirely possible. Considering I’d had a hard enough time just getting the name of the restaurant he wanted to meet at for dinner, I thought it was more than possible.
Neither of us needed to be out crazy late, so we’d agreed to meet at a nice steak place just after work instead of having me come home and meet him there first. I thought Ryan was a bit frustrated that he wouldn’t get to drive me there like he’d pictured for what was probably our first date, but it made the most sense. He’d finally given in when I’d kissed him and told him that I’d do the same for any date because it was logical and it meant I’d have more time with him rather than driving around.
The drive across town wasn’t long, but it gave me too much time to think. Everything was simpler when Ryan and Dare were with me. Just having Ryan with me in the kitchen made my nerves quiet. I liked it.
I wasn’t having second thoughts about what we were doing or even issues about the practical part of it…I just wished I understood the boundaries. Ryan and I lived together but didn’t. We were friends but were dating. Where was the line between friendship and what we had now?
Could I just walk in and ask to sleep with him for the night?
Could I tell him I wanted to touch him more and explore his body?
Could I tell him I wanted him to touch me?
With other guys I’d dated, I’d always had to force myself to go through the motions of what I thought they’d wanted, but with Ryan, I wasn’t sure what to do. If we both wanted someone else to take charge we’d never get anywhere with just the two of us…but there were things I wanted.
More kisses.
To feel his arms wrapped around me while we lay down together.
The list was endless, but I didn’t know how to get started. There wasn’t this need to put things off or go slow like there had been in the past. I wanted everything now, but I wasn’t sure how to go about getting it.
But I was hoping that’s what Dare would take care of.
He’d been clear that communication and honesty were the key to making us work. With the secrets out of the way, I was hoping he’d take things to the next level. I knew his answer would be that we needed to talk about what the next level should look like.
But I was ready to make love to them…both of them.
If there was something I wanted at work, I’d have gone for it. It was like the football field; everything else just fell away and it was easy to focus. There was nothing personal hanging around in my head and nothing I had to worry about other than studying and giving my best.
It was easy.
The rest of life wasn’t that easy.
As I pulled into the parking lot and found a spot, I tried to push the thoughts away. “You are going to have fun on your date. That’s what matters now.”
Pocketing the keys as I got out of the car and stood, I glanced around, trying to see Ryan’s car. When I found him, I had to laugh. He was leaning against the hood of his car doing his best eighties movie pose, trying to seem cool.
He didn’t need to worry about how he looked for me. I didn’t need him cool…I just needed him.
