Page 22 of Becoming the Owners
His sheepish smile made me laugh. “Um, I don’t think I own any batteries at the moment and the only things that light up are a few scented candles and a weirdglow in the darkdildo that someone gave me as a gag gift.”
God.
“If we make it to a one-month anniversary, you’re not getting flowers. You’re getting hurricane supplies.”
Moron.
Of course, he just focused on what he wanted to hear. “Aww, already planning our anniversaries? I’ll remember they’re important to you.”
Idiot.
God, he was going to celebrate the damned things every chance he got now that I’d stepped in it.
To keep from hearing him talk about anniversaries, I went back to the main conversation. “That’s all I can think of that would make me upset. I’m not stupid enough to think there’s nothing else out there that would freak me out, but I haven’t run into anything specific I know I need to tell you about.”
Fuck, with my luck he’d look at me weird in our first scene and I’d do something stupid.
“Alright.” Nodding, Brass Man’s brain seemed to be going a thousand miles an hour. “I’m not going to restrain you or anything like that tonight. My goal is to make this an easy way for you to explore submission without it being overwhelming.”
His face scrunched up and he shrugged. “But…and this is a big one, our brains don’t always react like we think they will. Even if part of you thinks what we do is easy and simple, if youfeel off or emotional in a way you can’t explain, you need to say yellow and explain what’s going on.”
Swallowing, I nodded. “Because you need to be able to trust that I’m giving you genuine reactions and not hiding anything.”
There was a stupid amount of trust required in all this shit, and I kept wondering why the hell I was even trying it. My trust button was wonky at best and I was the last person who should be curious about any of it.
Nodding, he kept hammering in the point. “Yes, safewords aren’t just for obvious things like your joints being uncomfortable because of a position or being upset over something that’s happening. Unexpected emotions or fears are things that you safeword over.”
Because brains were weird.
“I will not hold back my feelings about what you are about to do.” I raised one eyebrow when he barely managed to hold back a smirk. “Don’t worry about that.”
If there was one thing I could do well, it was bitch and complain very loudly when I was pissed…it was the rest I wasn’t so sure about.
He shook his head, wearing awhat was I thinkingexpression. “I don’t know why I thought otherwise, my pretty bird.”
Me neither.
Subtle was not my middle name.
Chapter 7
Ben
When they’d made him, they’d broken the mold…but that was okay because he was going to be all mine.
As long as I didn’t fuck this up.
And to make sure I didn’t fuck it up, I needed to ask more questions.
“You might end up thinking this is a stupid question, but I’m fine with that.” The way he rolled his eyes like I was being ridiculous and just dragging things out made me want to laugh. “How clothed do you want to stay for our exploration into BDSM?”
He actually cocked his head and looked at me like I’d done something strange…again. “Why would you think I’d care? You’ve basically seen all of me if you’ve come to the club enough. I’m pretty sure the only thing I haven’t shown is the shaft of my cock because I don’t want Niko to get in trouble with the police.”
He was fascinating.
And I didn’t like the way he was genuinely confused about the question.
“Seeing you naked once or a hundred times does not give me permission to do a single thing and it shouldn’t let me assume anything.” God, the idiots who’d approached him hadbeen stupider than I’d thought. “So yes, while I could probably describe most of your body from memory…just because I have a great visual imagination, of course…that doesn’t mean I get to see it tonight.”
