Page 26 of Never Have We Ever
André stopped squeezing her. “You misunderstand me.” He rolled over, head hitting his pillow with anoomph.“Even after all these years, you still do not understand me, Valeska.”
The tears came. Valeska attempted to keep them contained and quiet, but within five seconds her own pillow was wetand her body curled up in the fetal position.
Which was worse? Her husband still wanting her? Or him being disgusted with her?
André was not roused until Valeska coughed on one of her quiet sobs.
“Mon chou…” He was wrapped around her again, only this time Valeska did not have the strength to push him away. “What is the matter? You can tell me. I am your husband.”
“I…” She hiccupped, addingto her dismay. “I’m so disgusting.”
“Who says this? Who called you disgusting?”
“I know I am. I’m not the same anymore.”
“Why? Because of our son?”
Valeska continued to sob.
“You think I am disgusted with my own wife?Mon cherie,I could never be disgusted with you. I’m not perfect either. I’ve gained four kilos and my hair is whitening as early as my father’s did. Last month a doctor stuckhis finger up my ass and told me there might be a problem one day. My penis goes a centimeter sideways. I always come too early.”
Valeska couldn’t believe she was laughing through her tears. “You do not!”
“No? You wouldn’t know recently. Just because we don’t makeamour,doesn’t mean I don’t treat myself. I come too early now. I am too hurried and getting too old.”
“Don’t even joke about that.You’re barely thirty-six.”
“You are as beautiful as the day I met you. I always enjoy my time with you, whether we make fullamouror have a little fun.”
Valeska wiped away her tears. “I’m not the same down there. I had three surgeries.”
“So? We can still enjoy.”
“It’s not like it once was. However you remember it, it might be different.”
“Valeska Reiter-Dubois…” He squeezed her closer tohim, his lips nuzzling the crook of her neck. “We don’t have to go all the way right now. We can go easy.”
The girlish part that remained in her heart smiled to hear him say something so sweet. The rest of her likewise responded to his flirtations. It may not have been the full arousal she once experienced, but it brought her into his arms and welcomed his arduous kisses upon her famished lips.
“You are too consumed with how it looks,” her husband said. “We will turn off the light and you will close your eyes. Think about how it feels,mon chou.I will be gentle.”
She expected him to attempt intercourse, and she was not entirely opposed. But that was not his one-centimeter-to-the-side cock slipping against her reconstructed body. Those were his lips, and both they and his tongue madesuch gentle love to her that she was taken completely by surprise when she climaxed for the first time in over a year.
André could have whatever he wanted after that. He was fine with kissing and caressing her cheek while she stroked his erect shaft and taught him some forgotten dirty German words.
How could she have missed this so much? It was exactly what she –they– needed.
