Page 32 of Pulse
“You excited?” Josie asked, twirling her heels in her hands.
“I guess,” I lied. “It’s all a little sudden.”
“It means moving to Sydney for the duration,” she said. “Is that what you want to do?”
I stared across the studio towards the kitchen where the Twins were making enough noise to drown out just about everything else. They were pro material; I wasn’t so sure I was. There were plenty of other fighters who would kill for a placing, Alison aka Thunder was one. If they knew I was doubting going pro, then they’d throttle me in my sleep to take me out.
Was it what I really wanted? Move to Sydney to try and make it in the big time or stay and help Ash through the toughest time of his life… Scratch that, the toughest time of our lives...
“Do you love him?” Josie asked and I glanced back at her.
Could I love Ash again? Did I still love him? If I stayed then what did that mean for us together?
“You don’t know if you don’t try, Ren,” Josie said, patting me on the arm. “You don’t have to decide straight away.”
“I know. It’s just…”
“The biggest decision of your life?”
“Yeah,” I said with a laugh. “That.”
“You should go see him again.”
I grimaced, casting my gaze away.
“Ren, if you don’t go I know you’ll regret it for the rest of your life. You need to talk to him. You said it yourself, you fit. Your broken edges fit. He needs you and I think you need him.”
Forgiveness took a lot of effort; I knew that better than anyone. Could I forgive Ash for leaving me, no matter his reasons for doing it?
That was the million dollar question.
