Page 52 of Craving You
“I think so,” he says.“How can you tell?”
I roll Lori to her back, and she lets out a sigh, but is definitely asleep.I pull one eyelid open for a second to see if she will react, but she doesn’t.“She’s out,” I say.“She will be for at least a few hours.I gave her a lot, so she should sleep pretty hard until morning.”
“Is that safe?”he asks softly.
“Yes, it’s safe,” I laugh.“You don’t have to talk quietly.You’re definitely not going to wake her.”
“How are you doing with all of this?”he asks.
“Well,” I say.“I loved Tris like a sister.She was an incredible woman, and she didn’t deserve that, but I am hyper-focused on Lori.I’m scared someone will take her and even more so now that we know what they’d do.”
“I won’t survive if I lose her, Rem,” he says seriously.“This woman right here is the only thing keeping me grounded and I can’t lose her.”
“You won’t,” I say.“We just need to be vigilant.”
“Yeah,” he sighs.
“Wanna talk about what happened in the shower?”I ask.
“Which part?”he asks, and I laugh.
“I assume I know why you were upset, but let’s start with the first thing,” I say.“I tested you two to see if she would stop it from happening and if you would allow it.Not only did you allow it, but you got hard.”
“Yeah,” he says simply.“Now, I assume the realization that you get hard for you sister brought up some guilt, which led to the breakdown.”
“Yeah…”
“Did Tris know?”I ask.
“Yeah,” he sighs.“She knew.”
“Care to explain it to me?”I ask.
“Rem,” he sighs.
“Dude, you had your hard dickin her face, and neither of you even flinched.You think I would do something like that and then get mad when you tell me exactly what I have known for years?”I ask.“Also, for the record, when she mentioned her catching you jerking off touching Tris, I know the truth behind that.You interrupted me trying to play with her, but I got to see you play with Lori instead.”
“I… where were you?”
“The closet,” I laugh.“Tell me the truth.It’s me, Cameron.”
“I am in love with Lorelei,” he says as he watches her sleep.“I have tried so hard to stuff it down and not say anything… I finally told Tris last night, and she was so happy… Tris planned on telling her tonight for me.”
“Fuck, I’m sorry, man,” I say.
“I don’t know how to explain it, but it’s like I knew that she was going to die,” he says.“It felt like she just wasn’t meant for this world.It just hurts so goddamn bad that she suffered.All of this makes me feel guilty.”
“You have nothing to feel guilty for,” I tell him.“If you did, you know I’d say something.”
“I know,” he sighs.“I don’t know what to do.”
“What do you want to do?”
“The very toxic side of me wants to fuck her in her sleep,” he says.
“Then do it,” I say.“I told her that I would fuck her in her sleep and filthy things would happen to her body.I think getting fucked by her brother qualifies as filthy.”
“You are a bad influence,” he says, and I laugh.
