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“Yes,” I replied, my heart pounding in my chest.
“Are you really alright?” He looked concerned.
“I’m angry and frustrated and pissed at the world.” I was also feeling really confused about everything with Declan. I was falling for him. I knew it and I didn’t know what to do with that. It took every ounce of willpower I had not to blurt it out in my post-orgasmic haze.
He nibbled my neck. “Do you just want my cock or do you want me?” For a split second, he looked vulnerable and this felt like a much bigger conversation. Declan was prickly on the outside, but it was at moments like this I could see the soft, kind heart beneath all that burly bluster.
“Both. I want both, Declan.”
He rolled me over and slapped my ass quick. It stung, but also shot a bolt of electricity straight to my clit. He lifted me up onto my knees and placed my hands on the headboard. He kneeled behind me and gently thrust into me from behind, shallowly at first, then getting deeper and deeper while wrapping his arms around me. He played with my breasts as I savored the sensation of fullness.
In my post-orgasmic state, everything was heightened and I was overcome. Being stretched and filled and so possessed by him sent me into a state of near orgasm. I felt if he moved an inch, I would detonate again.
“You feel so amazing,” he growled into my ear.
I moaned in response, unable to formulate words.
He started to move, slowly at first and then began to build up steam.
“I meant what I said earlier. I dream about this ass.” He spanked me hard and then caressed the area gently.
“I could tell,” I said. “You seemed to enjoy exploring earlier.”
“I think we both enjoyed it, killer,” he replied. I couldn’t really argue with his logic. The angle was incredible, hitting me in all the right places. I was so spent from the earlier orgasms, his strong arms were probably the only things holding me up. But at this moment, I reveled in the punishing pace and the intensity of every stroke.
I wasn’t usually very submissive. But submitting to Declan felt like the only choice. My body craved it. My mind craved it. I wanted to give him my body wholly and completely.
And since I had just sat on his face, it seemed like the right thing to do. And as he fell over the edge, bringing me with him, all I could think was that there was no way I could possibly avoid falling in love with this man.
26
DECLAN
Astrid wasnothing like I had ever experienced in my life. She was a supernova.
I couldn’t even remember what life was like before her because she made everything so much better. She was insatiable. For everything. Food, sex, conversation. She wanted to go for walks and listen to music and talk about literature. She had this beautiful, childlike enthusiasm for the simple things. And the simple things were so much more enjoyable with her.
She spent her time going to Krav Maga classes and hanging out with her girlfriends and was evolving right in front of my eyes. Her face had filled out and was no longer gaunt. Her body wasn’t skinny; she was lean and strong. Everything about her was different, and I loved watching her transform into a better version of herself in front of my eyes.
Sometimes we talked, really talked, about our families and our lives and our choices. We talked about anything and everything. Childhood memories, dreams for the future. And sometimes we just enjoyed the silence together.
She asked me about my ideas and pushed me to talk to my father and make my case for the future of the business. She even pushed me to be more social, accepting invites from my brothers and her friends to hang out.
Liam and Cece had even come over one night for pizza and beer. I was not the dinner party hosting sort, but I could tell it meant a lot to Astrid, and we ended up having a great time.
I couldn’t help but think ahead. And I was never that guy. But I thought about the future and I could see her in it. I didn’t want a future without her.
She had shown me what a relationship could be. What true companionship and affection were. I felt like I had won the lottery. Like I should go out and tell everyone how awesome it is to have an incredible goddess for a girlfriend.
I didn’t even care that this was supposed to be fake. It was real now, and that’s all that mattered.
She owned me, body, mind, and soul, and there was nothing I wouldn’t do for her.
* * *
As the days became weeks and the weeks became a month, she talked less and less about her career and her law firm. I knew she loved being a lawyer, but it was clear she had discovered a lot of other things she liked to do too.
She insisted on learning everything she could about the fishing business and had offered to help us review contracts for the beer distribution company as well.
