Page 4 of Pain in the Axe
Too bad the bastard had looked so damn good.
Like himself. An older, wiser, sexier version of himself.
He had always been thick and strong, barrel-chested with broad shoulders. Though his hair was longer and his beard thicker.
The days of patchy stubble and the dream of a beard more than the fully realized version had long since passed.
He’d been a boy then, but now he was a man. A little unkempt and with a glare that could stop traffic, but all man.
Was he happy? Did he have a nice life? Was he married? Kids?
Why did I care?
Did he have fulfilling hobbies?
I hoped not.
Just thinking about it highlighted my lack of all of the above. Especially kids. I was supposed to be content with my career and money and being an awesome aunt. But as my fortieth birthday crept closer, it was my one big regret.
Ugh, he better not have kids. Not only would that make me a horrible person for buying his company and demoting him, but then I’d have to process the fact that the man I always thought would be the father of my children was the father of someone else’s. And I had too much emotional baggage at the moment to take that on.
I took no pleasure in the demise of his family’s company. It had been his one dream—to run the company just like his father, his grandfather, and his great-grandfather had done.
There was no doubt that his father’s misdeeds would have gutted him. Gus was fair and honest, and all the court documents my lawyers had dug up confirmed what I’d already known. He had no role in or knowledge of the illegal dealings.
I sympathized with the man.
But not enough to keep me from striking like a king cobra when I had the chance to buy it. It wasn’t just a goodbusiness investment. It was vindication my twenty-year-old self desperately needed.
I climbed into the massive SUV, where Karl had already claimed the passenger seat. Back in Seattle, I had a zippy Beemer, but I’d rented a car here since I wasn’t sure how long I’d be staying. And they’d given me a gigantic Suburban. It was black and boxy and massive, and I still hadn’t gotten used to driving it.
“We need to stop at the Caffeinated Moose. It’s awesome. Almost makes this podunk town bearable,” Karl observed, pointing out his window, signaling that I should turn right and head toward town.
“Yes. The blueberry scones alone are worth the trip,” JJ added. “I’m borderline hangry right now.” Jennifer Johnson, known as JJ, was a tiny but fierce forest scientist. I’d recruited her out of the Yale graduate program after she’d struck out with several global timber companies on account of her gender.
Her hair was short and her cheekbones were as sharp as her attitude. She was brilliant and understood trees better than anyone I’d ever met. She would be whipping Hebert Timber into shape in no time.
For the most part, I managed to stay on her good side, but only because I understood that she should be fed at regular intervals and needed plenty of time in the woods.
“Calm down. We’ll feed you,” Karl hollered as we made our way down the winding country road toward town. “Jeez, you two are so cranky this morning.”
And Karl, my sweet Karl. My assistant and honorary third little brother. Although he was over six feet tall and had filled out, in my mind, he would always be the awkward kid who showed up at my apartment in Seattle a decade ago.
We’d been friends since, and we’d worked together for the last five years. I could barely function without him. Some days he had to remind me to eat, sleep, and take off my makeup.
I could, however, function without his nonstop commentary.
“Are you wearing Spanx?” he asked, raising one eyebrow. “I thought we decided Spanx made you stabby and it was in the best interest of humanity to let your ass breathe.”
“I’m seeing my ex-husband today,” I huffed, lifting my chin as I navigated the vehicle into town. “I need the Spanx.”
“If the way he looked when you walked into that room is any indication, you can skip ’em. The man’s jaw dropped, and his tongue rolled out of his mouth like a cartoon character when you crossed that threshold.”
“He’d probably like to tear those Spanx off with his teeth.” JJ giggled in the back seat.
I had a momentary flashback to the days and nights we’d spent together. How beautiful and extraordinary he’d made me feel. The warmth of his touch, the heat of his breath on my neck, how safe I felt in his arms. When we were together, the big, scary world ceased to exist.
But the girl I was back then was long gone. That girl who was afraid of the world. That girl who needed protecting.
