Page 25 of Not Afraid to Trust Again
“What’s going on? Kanae called me, but I couldn’t answer. Is she okay? Is the baby okay?”
As far as I knew, Elise hadn’t told her about the baby, but that didn’t stop the question from flying out of my mouth. I was firing off questions, but the look on her face didn’t sit right with me. It didn’t look like she was crying, but there was something wrong.
“I think you need to go in and see her. I’ll walk you to her room, but I’ll give you some time to talk.”
“Why can’t you say what’s happening?” We were only mere feet from the room, but my anxiety got the best of me.
Every room in the emergency department had doors instead of curtains, so we weren’t disturbing any other patients.
“Just let her tell you, Kyden.” She rubbed my arm and went to sit in one of the chairs in the hallway.
My heart thumped against my chest as I stared at the closed door. I said a silent prayer before tapping gently on the door. I didn’t hear her tell me to come in, but I opened the door anyway. I slowly entered the room, and Kanae was lying on her side.
“Elise,” I called out as I walked further into the room.
She didn’t answer, so I wasn’t sure if she was asleep or not. I heard her sniffle when I moved closer.
“Elise, baby, I’m sorry I couldn’t answer your calls. What happened?” I sat on the edge of the bed.
I wasn’t prepared for the red, puffy eyes that looked up at me. Her eyes were still wet from the tears she’d been shedding.
I rubbed her shoulder as she lay on her side. “What happened?”
She didn’t say anything. She just sniffled as tears streamed down her freckled face. After a minute or two had passed, she shook her arm, so my hand fell off her shoulder. She scooted back in the bed and looked at me like I was the damn devil, and that shit tore me up. I never wanted to be on the receiving end of her anger.
“You want to know what happened, Kyden? I’ll tell you what happened. I lost our baby, and you were nowhere to be found. I had to do this shit all alone!” She shouted so loud I was sure Janae and everyone else in the hallway heard her.
If I hadn’t already sat down, I may have fallen to the floor. My body went numb as tears filled my eyes. Our baby was gone, and she had to endure it alone.Our baby was gone.
I scrubbed a hand over my face. “Baby, I’m so sorry.”
I reached out and pulled her into my arms. Her loud wails caused a lump to form in my throat as my eyes watered. I held her as her body shook against me. I couldn’t stop the tears from falling. The baby was gone, and Elise was hurt. Hell, I was hurt, and there was nothing I could do to fix it. I didn’t know what to say or what to do besides hold her. I wasn’t sure how to comfort her because I didn’t know how to comfort myself.
After a few minutes of our silent cries, she pushed me away and moved as far away from me as the bed allowed her.
“Fuck your sorry, Kyden. My baby is gone, and I fucking hate you. I called you over and over again, and you couldn’t answer the phone. Probably was doing God knows what.”
My eyes bucked, and I tried to reach out and touch her again, but she slapped my hand away.
“I was working, Elise. That’s all. I’m sorry I didn’t answer.”
“Whatever. It doesn’t matter now. The baby is gone, so we can call this shit quits.”
More tears fell from my eyes. I didn’t know what to do. Elise looked at me like she hated me, and I felt numb all over. She must have lost her mind if she thought this shit with us was over.
“Goodbye, Kyden.”
“Elise, we are in this together. There is no leaving.” My voice cracked as more tears fell.
She sucked her teeth and scoffed. “We ain’t in shit together. My baby is gone, and I don’t want anything else to do with you.”
Her harsh tone made me flinch. She saidmy babylike it wasn’t mine too. My heart felt like it was being crushed into a million pieces.
“Elise, I?—”
“Get out.”
My shoulders fell, and my chest caved in. I’d never seen her so hurt before. I understood her pain, but shit, that hurt me too.
