Page 47 of Not Afraid to Trust Again
Lately, it had been feeling like all my days ran together, so I had no clue what day it was.
Kyden chuckled. “Yes, that’s today. Good thing I did everything. The only thing you have to do is get dressed and chill. I got everything covered.”
He leaned over and kissed my cheek.
“Thank you.” I smiled at him.
He had taken a few weeks off from work, and we developed such a good routine that I wasn’t sure what I would do once he went back to work. I wasn’t scheduled to go back to work until Kaylee was at least six months old, but a small part of me didn’t want to go back at all. I hadn’t mentioned it to Kyden, but I was certain he wouldn’t be against it if I didn’t.
Both sides of our families were going to chip in and help out when I went back, but I didn’t want to miss a moment of her life. I was obsessed with my baby, and I probably would be until she started walking. I giggled at the thought.
“What’s funny?” Kyden asked then took the baby from me when she was finished eating.
I pulled my shirt down and lay my head on his shoulder.
“I was thinking about how I am now with Kaylee and how she’s going to be by the time she starts walking. I was also thinking I don’t think I want to go back to work when my time is up.”
Kyden tapped the baby on her back but looked over at me.
“Don’t.”
He said it like it was so simple, and that’s how life had been for the last year—simple. There was nothing I had to think about, except for what I wanted to eat at times.
“Just like that?”
“Yes. Just like that,” Kyden responded.
I wasn’t sure if I would still have a job if I extended my leave, so I would have to think about it a little longer. Kyden and I sold our houses and bought one together that we both picked out. We agreed that since our relationship had started from scratch, we would build new memories in a new house from scratch. We ended up picking a four-bedroom house, just in case we had more children.
“What if I never went back?”
“Then you don’t go back.”
He moved Kaylee to his side then kissed the side of my head.
“I got us. If you want to be a stay-at-home mom, then do that. If you want to wait to go back to work, then do that. Whatever you want to do, do it. I’m going to support you and be there no matter what you choose.”
“You make life so easy.”
“That’s my job. I’m going to put her down then come back and help you wash your back.” He winked at me.
I already knew what he would try to do. Almost every time we took a shower together, we ended up having sex. Having anewborn made intimate moments difficult at times, so we had to improvise in any way we could.
“I’ll keep the water warm for you.”
When Kyden left the room, I made the bed then went into the bathroom again to shower. I let the water cascade over my body as I waited for Kyden to enter. It didn’t take long before I heard the bathroom door open, and I watched him put the baby monitor on the sink.
As soon as he got in, he kissed me, and we had sex in the shower before we washed up and got out.
Once we were done, we relaxed for a while before our company came.
A few hours later, we sat in the living room with our families and friends. We kept Kaylee to ourselves, so no one from the family had seen her in person. We sent plenty of pictures, but I wanted to be as careful as possible. Our families respected our decision, but I knew they were anxious to meet her.
“She is so precious, Sis,” Janae gushed as she held Kaylee in her arms. “And that baby smell.”
She sniffed her neck and closed her eyes.
“She really is.”
