Page 9 of To Defend a Damaged Duke
Chapter Five
OVER THE YEARS, a tiny thread of a voice—largely ignored—often hinted to Tommy that, one day, his lordling might cross his path.Back when he earned a crust treading the boards at Drury Lane, face paint so thick and voice so disguised even his own mother would have had a hard time recognising him, he used to peer up into the box seats.Heart in his throat, he’d hope, dread, hope, dread—emotions tumbling from one to the other—that he might spy that dark, handsome head amongst the crowds.
He never did.And as time shifted forward, as Tommy himself shifted forward, he eventually ceased peeking around every corner or searching every smart carriage.His clever mind sought out other pastimes instead, all-encompassing endeavours of the fortune-making variety.These days, if he strolled through Vauxhall and his lordling by happenstance rode alongside, he might not notice at all.In fact, if one didn’t know Tommy well, as his businesses expanded and his heart grew even stonier, one might assume he’d forgotten the striking youth altogether.
Tonight, a few feet below Tommy’s head, that boy he’d once loved with every fibre of his being sipped Tommy’s brandy in the company of his brothers.Exchanging pleasantries with one and disagreeing with the other.And he was a duke, no less.A blessed, bleeding bugger of a damned duke.
Tommy paced his small library, unsure whether to gulp down the goblet of pricey liqueur making his belly curdle or hurl it at the wall.His knees trembled, and his impeccably starched collar felt damp against his neck.He felt muddled, torn between his hatred for the duke and a horrid, sick yearning to see him up close.Fear whispered in his ear too; he was lightheaded with it.Though fearful of what?Ashington was no more likely to expose Thomas L’Esquire for what he used to be than Tommy would expose him.They would both be ruined.
“Mickey is on his way up with His Grace,” announced Sidney from the doorway.
Tommy acknowledged this with a brisk nod, not trusting his voice.
“Do you want me to stay and look pretty?You aren’t quite yourself tonight, Tommy.I can show ’im around if you want to put your feet up.”
“No, Sidney.Thank you.”He wiped away the moisture gathered on his upper lip.On shaky legs, he returned to the seat behind his desk and picked up his quill pen.“Go back downstairs.I’m…I’m quite all right.Tired, is all.”
It was unusual to request a duke pay a call on a commoner.Invariably, Muhammed visited the mountain, not the other way around.And even when a dukediddeign to climb two sets of stairs at the beckoning of an arrogant upstart, most arrogant upstarts would rise from their seat and proffer a humble bow.
The lack of any such ceremony might have accounted for the duke’s grave expression as a visibly awed Mickey announced his arrival.Or perhaps he was always pale and unsmiling.Nonetheless, Tommy could not have clambered to his feet even if he wanted to.
“His Grace, the Duke of Ashington, sir,” Mickey stammered and promptly scarpered.
Once upon a time, when he still believed in the magic of Covent Garden showmen, Tommy saw this man’s silhouette in the shape of the clouds.Felt the trace of his fingertips in raindrops hurrying down a sheet of glass, heard his deep, needy sighs over the bustle of a crowded street.
As their eyes met, Tommy’s grey and cold, the other’s a warm, deep brown, his prepared speech suffocated in his throat.
“We’re already acquainted,” he said shortly.“Good evening, Your Grace.”
Watching each stage of the duke’s horrified comprehension would have been almost amusing if Tommy hadn’t been equally overcome.Because, dammit, everything Tommy once found incomparable about his young raven’s beauty still haunted him.The flawless skin stretched tight over high, noble cheekbones as pale as the winter storm raging outside his window.That blasted hair, of course, thick, sooty waves of it still curled over his forehead.Tommy remembered how they dampened and the tenderness with which he’d brushed them back.His red lips, full and sensual, now covered by a large hand as the dumbstruck duke staggered away from him.The fine black hairs dusting the back of that hand, how they’d tickled against Tommy’s chin whenever he’d pressed soft kisses against each of the knuckles.
He remembered how that hand had grasped his wrist and tethered him to a bedpost.
“Tommy,” managed the duke at last.“Oh, lord.Tommy.”
“It’s Thomas these days.Mr Thomas L’Esquire.You don’t have the right to address me by my forename.Even though you’re a duke.Wouldn’t you agree, Your Grace?”
“Yes…I…Tomm— I thought you were…I thought you were…”
“Dead?”Tommy supplied.“Imprisoned?Assembling roads under a hot Australian sun, chained to anotherwhore?”
Like a hurled egg, the hateful word splattered between them.The duke’s skin turned even more ashen.
“Sorry to disappoint, Your Grace.But as you can see, I’m alive and well.And thriving.”
“I’m not d-disappointed,” stuttered the duke.“I’m… Good Lord.I’m thrilled obviously, that you are…here and…and well.And—” He swayed a little.“Do you mind awfully if I sit?”
As insubstantial as a house of cards, the duke fell into the spindly chair facing Tommy, his broad frame filling it.It gave an ominous creak.Churlishly, Tommy cared not if it sent the duke crashing to the floor.With a striped pocket square, the man rubbed at his eyes as if clearing his vision, maybe hoping the view might be altered if he did.Then he clutched the thing tightly in his fist.
“They said, people said, that this club is owned by a man who has come from abroad.”
A rumour Tommy had set himself.“To my patrons, the stewsarea foreign country.”
“And yet it is owned by you.”The duke shook his head in wonder.“You escaped.”
A thin smile tugged at Tommy’s lips.“Your powers of deduction do you credit, Your Grace.But it was less of an escape, more divine intervention.”
“How…I mean…yes, that is what I mean.I mean how?I read in a newssheet that you had been arrested…names were listed.I…my cravat…”
