Page 5 of Spider
My body tensed and I pulled back to look at him.“Why?I get a free pass to fuck anyone so you can do that same?Was I so terrible at sucking your cock?”
He shut his eyes a moment and when he opened them again, I saw a hint of tenderness, something I doubted he showed many people.The man I’d first seen at the airstrip, the tough alpha, the stoic guy who looked hard and tough, was likely the side he showed the world.But this man, the one looking down at me now, it almost felt like this side of him was just for me.
“No.That’s not why, and you know damn well I liked that.I won’t make you feel like a whore, Luciana.I don’t want you to feel obligated to --”
I pressed my fingers to his lips and swallowed hard.I reached down and gripped his hand, then placed it between my thighs.His eyes darkened as he stroked my pussy.
“I don’t get wet for men I don’t desire.”I hesitated only a moment.“In fact, I’ve never gotten wet for a man before.Only for you, Spider.”
And it was the truth.Whenever I’d been ordered to offer myself to a man, I’d made sure to use lube before meeting him.None of the men in my father’s world cared if a woman enjoyed herself or was a willing participant.If they’d hurt me, it would have only turned them on more.Maybe it was insane to be wet and needy right now, after all the horrors I’d faced, but his tender touch, his adamant refusal to do anything he thought might harm me, was the biggest turn-on.
“Luciana, you’ve been horribly abused, physically and sexually.I’m not sure that… I don’t know that sex is a good idea.At least, not right now.You need time to heal, to process everything that’s happened.I’m not saying never.You know I want you.I couldn’t hide the fact I was hard, and I just came in your damn mouth.”
My lips twisted a little.“I never have.”
He blinked once.Twice.“Never have what?”
“Come.I’ve never had an orgasm.”
A slow smile spread across his face.“Well, I guess I can’t let that stand, now can I?Doesn’t mean I’m putting my cock inside you, though.”
“Then what…” I squealed as he gripped my waist and lifted me onto the table.I placed my hands on his shoulders to steady myself.Spider pulled the chair over and sank onto it.
“Too fucking old to kneel on this damn wood floor,” he muttered.
Gently, he kissed the scars that marked my belly, hips, and thighs.His beard tickled, but what he was doing, the way he touched me, brought tears to my eyes and made my throat tight.
Other than my eyebrows and the hair on my head, the rest had been removed permanently.I’d always hated it, hated the way it felt to be bare down there.Exposed.Until now.Spider traced his tongue along my slit, and I gasped as I leaned back and spread my thighs wider, giving him better access.No one had ever put their mouth on me before, except for the man who’d bitten me and not in a fun, sexy way.I still bore the scar on my inner thigh.They’d always shoved their cocks into me and that was it.They’d get off and be done with me.
For the first time since my body had been marked, I wasn’t ashamed of the scars.I didn’t feel ugly or degraded.Spider made me feel beautiful and desirable.He wasn’t using my body as a way to punish me, wasn’t taking what he wanted whether I liked it or not.He was giving me an incredible gift, and proving yet again that he was different from the other men I’d known.
He held me open and sucked on my clit.I could feel something building, a warm buzz settling under my skin, and a tingling where he’d placed his mouth.My nipples hardened and my pussy clenched, feeling empty.Too empty.I needed more.He circled my clit with his tongue before lightly biting down, and it was enough to make me see stars.The strangled cry that left my lips turned into a wail as he worked the sensitive nub, making my orgasm go on and on.I was trembling and breathless, my thighs shaking as I felt moisture gather under me.My cheeks warmed when I realized it was coming from me.
Spider wasn’t finished with me yet, though, and he didn’t stop until I’d come twice more.He’d given me pleasure unlike anything I’d ever experienced, and yet I still ached, felt like something was missing.He pushed his chair back, his chest rising and falling with his labored breaths, and I realized he was just as turned-on as I was -- still needed more, just like me.
I eyed his cock, biting my lip when I saw he was hard again.I eased off the table and straddled him.Spider’s gaze locked on mine and he slowly shook his head, warning me not to do it, but I’d never been good at listening.In Colombia, I might have hesitated.With Spider, I knew I wasn’t in any danger.I placed my hands on his shoulders and lowered myself onto his cock, taking him all the way inside me.
“Luciana.”His tone held a hint of warning, but I ignored it.
“I’m clean, if that’s your concern.”
“I am too, but that doesn’t make this a good idea,” he said.
I wanted this, wanted him.If he didn’t want to touch me after this, then I would have at least experienced how incredible sex could be once in my life.Even though he’d spoken of other men in his club, younger ones, I knew I didn’t want them.It was younger men who had hurt me.I understood that not all men were like that, or at least I did now, but I didn’t think I’d ever trust someone my father’s age or younger, not enough to get naked with them.
“Please,” I said softly.“Make me forget.Give me something good to dream about to keep the nightmares away.”
His gaze softened a fraction.“You don’t play fair, girl.”
“As they say, all’s fair in love and war, right?”
“And which do you think this is?Because I’ve never loved a woman in my life, and I’m not offering that now.”He didn’t speak harshly or coldly.Merely stated the facts.
His words hurt, but I tried not to take it personally.If our roles were reversed, I’d likely feel the same way.If a man like Spider ever did love someone, I knew he’d give his whole heart to her, and she’d be damn lucky.But we were strangers and hadn’t exactly gotten off on the right foot.
“I’ve been fighting a war my entire life.”He might not see it that way, but it was how I felt.“Maybe for once, I just want something nice to hold onto for a bit.”
He glanced down at where we were joined.“Do you want to be in charge?Will that make this easier for you?”
