CHAPTER 1
Stanford Hall, Nottinghamshire
Temple Alexander Grey, the eighth Earl of Stanford, strode purposefully down the long, polished hallway toward the library. The echo of his boots on the wooden floor mirrored the steady rhythm of his thoughts, though his mood was anything but calm. Earlier that morning, he’d ridden for miles, his horse cutting through the misty countryside as if the distance from his home would somehow make his current problems smaller.
The estate’s sprawling lands, with their ancient oaks and rolling meadows, had provided solace. They offered an escape from his mother’s incessant nagging—a relentless refrain that had driven him to the saddle. Oddly, her constant push to see him wed seemed more worrisome than his debt-laden estates. Her persistent interference often left him taut with irritation.
A rueful chuckle escaped him. The Countess of Stanford meant well, Temple reminded himself for the hundredth time. She was determined to see him married, to secure the future of the earldom with an heir, and to relieve the debts that hung over their heads. However, Temple had no intention of being pushed.He understood his responsibilities; he knew his duties better than anyone. But he would choose his path on his terms when he was ready.
Avoiding confrontation with his mother had become second nature, not only to preserve peace but to fend off the bitter reminders of his regrets about his father’s death. The strained air between them often seemed laced with unspoken accusations, ones he could not bear to voice aloud.
As Temple reached the library door, he exhaled slowly, anticipating the quiet sanctuary. But as he pushed it open and stepped inside, he froze. The countess was waiting for him.
Bloody hell.
Temple stiffened, the muscles in his shoulders and jaw tightening instinctively. His mother sat in her usual chair by the window, the soft light catching her face’s elegant yet stubborn lines. At two and fifty, his mother, Lady Stanford, retained an ageless beauty, her high cheekbones and delicate jaw lending her an air of aristocratic grace. The tapping fingers on the armrest betrayed her anxiety. Memories of their last heated conversation only last night flashed in his mind.
By God, she is too determined.
His lips curved into a polite smile, though irritation simmered beneath. “Good morning, Mother. I trust you rested well.”
Her gaze snapped to his. Once warm and nurturing, her light blue eyes now carried the weight of constant worry, shadows that rarely seemed to leave them. Her ash-blonde hair, arranged in a flawless chignon, lent her an unyielding air. Temple knew at once that she had armed herself for another battle with him. She was every inch the composed matriarch in her dark lavender morning gown, yet her expression betrayed her discontent.
A tight smile curved her lips. “Good morning, my dear. Thank you for asking. Alas, I did not sleep well, despite my best efforts. I have called for the physician to attend me today.”
Temple frowned, sensing something more than their usual disagreements. “What is amiss? Are you unwell?”
Her lips pressed together as though she weighed carefully how to proceed.
“I am worried, Temple. It plagues me so that I can neither eat nor properly sleep.”
He would not answer in the manner she anticipated, but his tone remained unfailingly polite. “And what weighs so heavily upon you, Mother, that it robs you of rest and appetite?”
Her voice trembled, though she quickly masked it with resolve. “Please, do not pretend ignorance. This is about yourfuture, Temple.” He sighed, bracing himself and willing patience to take root. “Mother…”
“As your mother, how could I not desire the very best for my son? How can I not worry when you are so dreadfully stubborn?”
Temple scrubbed a hand over his face. It was unusual to see his mother look so uncertain. He had long understood that she had changed after his father’s death. Where once she had been a quiet, steady presence in the household, grief had transformed her into someone far more determined, almost relentless in her efforts to see Temple married and their reputation and finances secured.
Deep down, Temple knew her intentions came from love. But it baffled him why she could not trust in his assurances.
“Mother, we’ve spoken about this several times before. You do not need to allow my unmarried state to vex your nerves. Trust me that I will solve everything in due time.”
Her eyes softened briefly before she drew a measured breath, her shoulders straightening. “Yes, we have discussed it several times, and that is the problem, my dear. We must discuss itrepeatedly until you understand my concerns. How can I feel trust when you do not have a plan?”
Temple bit back a sigh and crossed the room, positioning himself by the grand fireplace, one hand braced on the mantel. His gaze flicked over the familiar rows of leather-bound books, his sanctuary of knowledge, history, and ideas. Yet he could find no solace here today.
Her voice dropped, quieter now. “You know why I worry. You are all I have left. This estate…all my happy memories are here; I cannot bear to see it stripped away. You have already sold some of our most beloved paintings and antique vases. Your father…he…”
Temple’s gut twisted. It was a familiar guilt, one that lived just beneath the surface of his grief. “Let’s not speak of him today, Mother.”
Pain darkened her eyes. His father’s death had upended their world. The magistrates had called it a tragic accident, nothing more, but polite society had crafted a far crueler narrative. The Earl of Stanford wasmurderedby his own son. The accusation had been whispered in drawing rooms and shouted in alleyways, though no one could ever explain what Temple would gain by such an act. The baseless gossip had spread like fire through thehaut ton, leaving Temple judged and condemned by those who once welcomed him into their homes.
He clenched his fists at the memory of finding his father during one of their grand hunting parties. His father had ventured off alone, as he often did, to track the game he loved so much. When hours passed and he hadn’t returned, Temple had gone to find him. The memory of that discovery—the broken body lying still and cold—was seared into his mind. He had screamed his anguish that day, clutching his father as though sheer will could bring him back. When the others found him,they had to pry him away. Temple shook his head sharply, dispelling the haunting images.
“I can see that faraway look in your eyes,” his mother said softly. “You’re not here with me.”
He straightened. The past may have scarred him, but he refused to let it dictate his future. He would chart his course, and no amount of pressure—motherly or otherwise—would change that.