Page 12 of Party Animal
Chapter Five
After the holiday, I took Julie back to school so she could start her summer session.The apartment felt empty without her and I felt bored and restless, and confused.I couldn’t get Lee off my mind.His mixed signals were driving me crazy.After all the time we’d spent together, I still couldn’t figure him out.Did that kiss mean he was ready to make a move on me, or was I imagining things?I called Joey and asked him to meet me at Tidbits.“And don’t forget to invite Paul and Lee.”
It took me forever to decide what to wear but I still got to the club early.I sat at our favorite table, ordered a drink, and flirted with the guys who stopped by to say hello.It passed the time until Paul and Joey showed up.I waved them over.
“Thanks for Easter,” Joey said.“I enjoyed seeing Julie.She’s a great girl.”
“And super smart,” I added.“Her grades are phenomenal.”
“It’s phenomenal what you’ve done for her,” Paul added.
I brushed off the compliment.“She deserves it.Here comes a waiter.What should we order for Lee?”
Paul looked troubled.“Don’t bother.He’s not coming.”
My heart dropped.“Why?”
“He went back east.”
I took a drink, but couldn’t swallow over the lump in my throat.“For good?”
Paul shrugged.“I hope not.”
“What’s going on?”
“His ex called and he couldn’t say no.”
Lee had never had a problem saying no to me.If he’d run back to his boyfriend, it was because he wanted to be with him.Suddenly, I wasn’t interested in sticking around.I was ready to grab the first hot guy that caught my attention and take him home.
“Don’t wait for me,” I told the guys.“I see somebody I know at the bar.”
I came up behind Beau and put my arms around him.“Hey, pretty boy, you just got lucky.Let’s get out of here.”
He turned around and kissed me.I led him outside and we walked the two blocks to my apartment.We barely made it out of the elevator before I was undressing him.He was groaning so loudly I thought he’d wake the neighbors.I unlocked the door and slammed it behind us.I let him push me against the door and kiss me.
It was a sloppy kiss.I don’t know what I’d expected, but it didn’t make my pulse quicken.Oh well, kissing is highly overrated anyway.Beau pressed his tongue to the seam of my lips and I let him in.He explored my mouth and I felt nothing.Finally, he came up for air and I fought the urge to wipe his kisses from my mouth.
Panting, Beau pulled me toward the bedroom.We undressed quickly, but I was in no rush.I looked at Beau’s familiar face and realized I didn’t know anything about him.He was like a stranger to me.
Beau tried to capture my lips again, but I evaded his kiss.Instead, I pushed on his shoulders until he sank to his knees in front of me.“Show me what a good cocksucker you are.”
“My pleasure,” he said.Beau bent his head and licked the tip of my cock for a taste of precum.
Suddenly, I was in a hurry to get this over with.“Suck me.Take all of it.”I gripped his head and guided him forward.My cock hit the back of his throat.He gagged, but started sucking.I held him fast, controlling his movements.Beau sucked like a Hoover, always eager to please, but I felt detached, as if I was watching someone else get a blowjob.Beau kept going but it was taking way too long, like I was putting in overtime at work and holding off my climax.Only I wasn’t.I could see he was getting tired.Finally, I felt my balls tighten and my cock swell.A few seconds later, I shot my load.
It was disappointing as hell.Sex had always been my escape from reality.It made me feel powerful and in control.I never thought I’d find it boring, but tonight the quick fix didn’t work.
Beau was still on his knees.I looked down at him and wondered why I’d been so desperate to bring him home with me.Obviously, he wasn’t what I’d needed.I felt guilty because he hadn’t gotten off, but I couldn’t even playact my way through a blowjob, let alone fuck him.I pulled him up to his feet.“Sorry, Beau.Time to leave.”
“But --”
“It’s not you.I have a bad case of whiskey dick.”
He looked confused.This had never happened before.I helped him with his clothes and urged him toward the door.
After he left, I poured myself a stiff drink and swallowed most of it in one gulp.The fiery liquid burned my throat.I waited for a comforting buzz to warm my body, and get me out of my head, but it didn’t happen.I sat in the dark, feeling miserable.I kept imagining Lee kissing his boyfriend, taking him to bed, making love to him.It drove me crazy.
The next day Joey asked me to meet at the club and I begged off.I didn’t want to run into Beau, or anybody else looking for a quickie.What if I couldn’t perform again?It wasn’t a good look for a porn star.Besides, my desire was lacking.Fortunately, filming wasn’t affected.They want me to last a long time.
