Page 60 of Nodus Tollens
Because you like him, Wren, a lot, and you know it’s time to let someone in.
“Wren.” Kate interrupted, causing my eyes to snap to hers. Coughing, I ran a hand through my pin-straight hair hanging just over my shoulder and walked over to my bed.
“You don’t think this is too much, do you?” I questioned while tugging the skirt down before falling onto my bed. Though I was slowly getting used to the outfit, how would I feel once Hayes saw me in it? I saw how he reacted when I was wearing his jersey at his game. I could only imagine how he’d react when he saw me wearing this. Granted, he had seen me naked… but still, now that we had kissed and somewhat established that we were going to try this out, I now suddenly felt shy.
“Absolutely not.” She shouted as she jumped onto her bed and landed on her knees. Dressed in some cotton shorts and a ratty tee, her hair thrown up in a messy ponytail, she resembled me more than I resembled myself. She had the confidence to rock this outfit. I did not. “Hayes will go bananas once he sees you.”
“You think?” I chuckled while fiddling with my fingers that were tucked in my lap.
“Uh, duh. I can barely keep my eyes off you.”
Shaking my head, I had a question that’s been on my mind for a while that I’ve been wanting to ask, but my embarrassment kept stopping me.
“So, I uh… have a weird question to ask.” I stumbled awkwardly through the words, causing my cheeks to heat even more than they already were. “Since you know I have a non-existent sex life, what if Hayes… you know, wants to…”
“Fuck?” She flat-out interrupted, causing me to instantly flush.
“Yes.” I swallowed, and for some reason, the word fuck next to Hayes seemed so miss-matched and sour on my tongue. I hated it.
“I don’t think you have to worry about that.”
Oh.
“Not in a bad way, Wren. The man is obviously in love, but I can see he’s going to be the kind of guy that’s going to wait for the right time.”
My heart started to gallop.
“I don’t think you’ll have to worry about anything with him. I think you got one of the good ones.”
Before I could even formulate a thought, a knock on the door caused my whole body to freeze. From my legs up to my arms, nothing was moving, and no part of me was making an attempt to answer the door.
Get up!
Even Kate was looking at me with a ‘what the hell’ expression, and when a good twenty seconds had passed, Kate began to scramble off her bed.
“I know you’re in there, Blue.” Hayes’s voice came through the door and eliminated all bad thoughts and all nerves with just one sentence. He didn’t sound angry or upset, more so calm as if he knew that it was going to take me a minute to answer the door, and for some reason, my heart started racing at that thought. Then, before Kate could reach the door to open it, I quickly interfered when I hopped off my bed and placed a hand on her arm. Realizing that I was finally going to answer the door, she smiled and swiftly got out of the way.
Sucking in a gallon’s worth of air, I latched my fingers around the door handle and began to pull.
“I know you’re…” Hayes began to say, but when I opened the door completely, the words died on his tongue. He wasn’t the only one affected by what he saw because my throat had immediately dried when I saw him. Standing in front of me with his golden hair slicked back, a white hoodie, and some dark-wash jeans, he looked way out of my league. Even his pronounced jawline was more perfect than the entirety of all my ‘appealing’ features. He was that good-looking, that perfect, and all I could think about was making him smile, so I could see those adorable dimples.
Slack-jawed and eyes filled with adoration, his stare devoured me whole. Head to toe, he soaked me in and left no crumbs. As he did, I watched as his throat contracted with each heated gaze that swept over the length of me. Then when he finally found my eyes, we both just stared. Flashes of our kiss played in my head, and with the way his stare dropped down to my glossy lips, I had a feeling he was having the same flashback.
“Blue…” His voice lowered as one of his large hands dragged through his hair. “You look…wow.”
My cheeks instantly flushed from his compliment.
“Thank you.”
It was like we were two magnets needing to come together. My need to reach out and touch him were overwhelming, but I remained glued to my spot. Though we couldn’t seem to keep our hands off each other the other night, there was a certain hesitance in the air hanging over us. I watched as his fists tightened at his sides like he was fighting himself from pulling me into him.
At least we both felt the same strong urge. It wasn’t one-sided.
“You look pretty good yourself.” My words came out more hushed than intended, but when he grinned, displaying those dimples, I completely melted.
“I think that’s the first time you complimented me.” He teased.
Groaning inwardly, I already knew my cheeks were burning red. I definitely wasn’t the nicest to him in the beginning. I wish I could turn back time to change that. Unfortunately, there was no forgetting, but I swore to myself I would be better. For him, I would try.
