“No, you’re right,” I say quickly so that he doesn’t feel bad about making me feel bad. This is a fucking disaster. “I should be able to please you and right now, I’m not doing a very good job of that.”
“You will please me like no other when you are used to sex, Savvie. This is a huge thing for you. I—I hate hurting you so much, but I’m going to burst if I don’t finish. Can I touch you? See if you’ll respond to my touch again?” He asks it almost desperately.
I nod because I can’t be selfish and tell him to stop, leaving him unfulfilled. Even if I gave him a hand job or tried to finish him off with my mouth it’s not fair on him. I placed this heavy burden on him, and he has been nothing but sweet and kind.
I close my eyes as he pulls out of me. I can’t help the sigh of relief, which he either didn’t hear, or ignores. Hopefully the first one.
He lowers his mouth to me again and starts to tease my clit in a delicious way that soon has me sighing again, but with happiness this time.
“Yes!” I cry out as he makes me come, flooding his mouth with my juices.
He is on me in the next instant and thrusting inside me quickly. He pounds away, once, twice, three times and then with a growl so loud, I fear the entire castle will hear him, he stops thrusting and I feel his cock twitching inside me as his cum spurts out, drenching me.
He grins down at me and then rolls off to the side, gathering me to him in his strong arms. “That was perfect,” he murmurs to me, kissing my shoulder.
I smile and stroke his face tenderly. “Thank you,” I tell him seriously. “I will treat you better next time.”
“Let’s concentrate on you for a while. I want you to be completely comfortable with this new experience,” he replies with a kiss to my nose now.
I snuggle into him, but don’t answer. Nope, that isn’t going to happen. I’ve come out of the gate now and as horrendously embarrassing as it was, next time I’m going to please him until he weeps so hard, he won’t even remember his own name.
I smile secretly into his solid chest.
And then I’m going to get Trey exactly where I want him, and then Theo.
I can’t fucking wait.
18
Savannah
Ilie awake listening to Jerrick snoring gently as he sleeps. I smile and kiss his chest before I climb out of bed. I stretch my back and then wince as the ache between my legs throbs a bit. I tiptoe into the en-suite bathroom and start to run a hot bath. As Fae, I’m not immortal. I’ll live to be thousands of years old, but eventually I’ll succumb to old age and die. I’m fine with that, even though the rest of my family will go on without me. I heal almost instantly, not as quickly as a Vampire or Dragon, but quick enough. This ache will be gone by the time I climb out of the bath.
“I’d have done that,” Jerrick says quietly as I lower myself into the steaming hot, fragrant water.
“I can do it myself,” I chide him.
“I know, but I want to do things for you, Savvie.”
I grin at him, but then frown as I see he is dressed and looking ready to bail.
“You’re leaving?” I say cautiously.
“I have to. If your father, or worse, yourmotherfinds me in here, or even can’t find me, things will spiral.”
I chew the inside of my lip. I see his point, but I hate that we have to be a secret. I want the whole world to know that we’re in love.
“Just for a bit longer,” he adds.
At my silence, he sits on the edge of the bath and sighs. “Your grandfather will rescind naming you as his heir if he discovers you engaging in a sexual relationship with me,” he says bluntly.
Well, he’s not wrong. In spite of his own sordid transgression with the former Dragon Empress which lead to the complicated birth of my mother, he is very traditional in his values. Hypocrite? Maybe. But he holds all the cards. Himandmy mother. If she discovers me deflowered by the Head of the Dark Fae Guard, she will chain me to the dungeon in this castle to never see the light of day, or the Fae Kingdoms, again.
“Okay,” I agree reluctantly. “But as soon as I’m Queen, we are telling.”
He smiles. “Okay, Princess,” he says and then indicates that I should release the magickal lock so that he can Puffport out.
I throw another bolt at the door and then he’s gone, leaving me to my thoughts, which only ends up with me panicking that I won’t be able to convince mother to let me be Queen.