Page 40 of Twisted Bonds
I pull him to me, pressing his head to my chest as I hold him close. He's like a child needing the comfort of his mother's arms, and I am more than willing to give him what he needs. Bain rarely shows his vulnerability, so I will always cherish this moment.
"Ryan, can you do me a favor?"
"Anything…" I whisper.
"If we decide today to try and make it work with Chloe and Beau, please love my son with your whole—heart." His voice breaks on the last word.
"I've always loved Beau with every cell in my body, but I still had room for you. There is nothing for you to worry about, Bain. You need to promise me something now, though," I tell him. "You need to put all your effort into building your marriage back up, but patiently. It looks as though Chloe has had a rough time of it."
Bain pulls back and gazes into my eyes. "So does Beau. I didn't miss how small he is compared to the son who left my house two years ago." He pushes some hair away from my eyes. "I hope you know you will always be my pretty girl, no matter what."
I smile and brush my lips against his. "I think it's time."
He sighs, then nods, agreeing, "Yes, it's time."
I slowly stand, letting his softened cock fall out, but he captures me around my waist and presses his lips to my lower abdomen while he's still on his knees. It's brief. He smiles up at me once he pulls his mouth away, and I step back to let him stand. This is it. It's the last time Bain and I will be together like this.
"I'm going to clean myself up, and then I'll be down," I tell him.
"Yeah, okay. We'll wait for you…"
I nod, and then watch as Bain walks out of the room. Taking a deep breath, I exhale it slowly to keep the tears at bay. Once I have my emotions under control, I find some clothes and shut myself inside my bathroom to wash away the last remnants of Bain I'll ever have.
I hear their voices coming from the living room when I reach the bottom of the steps. Closing my eyes, I take another deep breath and exhale. "You can do this, Ryan. It's only Beau…" I try giving myself some encouragement, but my heart only pounds faster.
"She's done wonders since she's been back home. Ryan is truly an amazing woman…" I hear Bain's voice, and I smile.
"You don't have to tell me how amazing she is. I've known it all along." Beau's response is slightly edgy, like he's trying to be civil. "How about you ask Mom where she's been, or do you not care?"
"Beau…" Chloe chastises softly.
"No, Mom. He hasn't even asked…" Beau starts, but I hurry into the room, hoping to stop any arguments before they begin.
"I'm sorry I've made you all wait. I needed to get a hold of myself, and I asked Bain to hold off until I came down so we could all talk together." I know it's a little fib, but we do not need to argue over this when there is so much to discuss.
"Ryan!" Beau jumps to his feet but stops, and I can see his hesitation.
"It's good to see you again, Beau. I'm glad you could make time to come home for a visit. Your father has missed you," I tell him, keeping my emotions in check.
The look he gives me is one of confusion and then disbelief. "Wait a minute! You thought I'd stayed away all this time because I didn't want to see any of you?"
"It's okay, Beau. The reason doesn't matter, and I'm not mad. I don't blame you for not wanting to be with me after…" My voice trails off when I feel my emotions start to rise.
Beau approaches me in three long strides, grabbing my upper arms once he gets here. "No, Ryan. You don't get to just assume until you at least hear me out."
His green eyes beg me to do this one thing for him, and of course, my love for the guy won't allow me tonothear him out. "Okay, Beau. We can all sit down and talk."
"We will, but I need to do something first."
"Oh, I see…"
I don't finish my sentence because his mouth claims mine. I don't know what to do. It feels so good to have him kissing me as his touch alone was sending tingles throughout my body. But this kiss? I want so badly to wrap my arms around Beau and kiss him back, and I know that's horrible of me after what just happened upstairs, but I can't help it. However, I can't hurt Bain like that, either.
Instead, I pull back and give Beau a small smile. "How about we talk first and then we can discuss the other stuff later. I'm sure your mom and dad will also need to discuss certain matters privately."
My heart cracks at the hurt I see pass over his face. If only he knew. I'd be all over him had I not just had his father's cum dripping from one of the places Beau had claimed as his years ago. First and foremost, I need to hearwhat he has to say for himself. I can't believe he stayed away because of the D'Angelos taking me, but what excuse does he have for not staying in touch?
I take his hand, hoping to ease the tension in his shoulders, and it does, but one quick glance at Bain and I see his stiffen just a little. I can't win here. I will not apologize for falling in love with Bain, but I will also not apologize for still loving Beau. I know I'm fucked up, but when you have lived the life I have, you learn to take what you can get…snatch that happiness up every chance you get.
