I feel good. Awake. Alive. Like I can handle telling any bossy man in my life to shove it.
"You're not the one fucking him. You don't get to tell me what I want" The electric current rushes to my fingers and toes. I don't talk like this. Not with this tone or this profanity or this focus on what I want in bed.
"You're right." His voice stays even. "But I don't trust that guy. I'm going with you."
"On my date?"
"I'll be at the shop. Just in case."
I should say no. Just to prove a point. To make sure he knows I'm in charge. But I want him there. I want him protecting me. I hate how much I want him protecting me. "Okay."
Ding.New Message. "Oh." I skim it quickly. "Bachelor One wants to meet Friday. At seven."Please come. Watch over me. Don't tell me what to do but stay nearby. So I feel safe.
"You want me to come?"
"Isn't that what you want?" My fingers curl into my jeans. I hate that I want his comfort. But I do.
"I'll be there."
"Thanks, Chase. I… I appreciate your help. But, uh—"
"Watch the sass?"
"Yeah."
"Not sure I can agree to that," he says.
"Oh. Well…"
"Kidding."
"Oh." I knew that. Totally. "I just… I'll see you Friday. Meet me here at six thirty. Help me pick out my outfit."
"Until then."
I hang up the phone.
Then I go straight to my room.
I try to push thoughts of Chase from my head. I try to stop imagining him rolling my jeans off my hips, dragging his hand over my thighs, growling dirty demands—
I fail.
Chapter Fifteen
Ariel
For the tenth time, I smooth my dress.
It still hugs my curves.
It still screamslook at me, I'm sexy.
It still makes me sick.
This is my break-up dress. The sexiest garment I own and the thing that reminds me I'm a loveless loser.
Not that I—