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“I’m fine, honestly,” I say trying to convince her but I wince again as I get another pain in my stomach.
“No you’re not. You’re going to the doctors.” And with that statement I watch as she lifts her phone to her ear and makes me an emergency appointment for that afternoon. When I started trying to convince her otherwise she just walked off to the other side of the shop.
Zoe came in to do her afternoon shift allowing Emma to escort me to the doctors. I don’t think she thought I would go alone.
“I think it’s safe to get you a scan just to make sure everything is as it should be,” the doctor says. “I’ll call the hospital now and get them to make you an appointment, they’ll call you with a time.”
I can’t help but think this is all being blown out of proportion. It’s fine, I know it is.
I get the call later that afternoon, I text Emma to let her know that the appointment is for nine the next morning and she immediately rings me back.
“I’ll have to rearrange a meeting but I’ll be there,” she says when I answer.
“Don’t be stupid. I’ll be fine. I’ll take Mum,” I say but I have not intention of taking her, the less people I make worry about this the better.
“You’re not going alone, Emma. Like you said I’m sure it’ll all be okay but you should have someone-”
“No, Emma,” I interrupt. “Seriously, I’ll be fine.”
Eventually when I think I’ve won I hang up and head to my room for an early night.
I haven’t seen much of Ruben since his visit a few nights ago. He refused point blank to go and apologise to Fin and I told him I wouldn’t forgive him if he didn’t so we’re still not really on speaking terms. I may not like Fin very much at the moment but he still didn’t deserve what he got, Ruben needs to speak to him.
I get up as late as possible for my appointment the next morning and after throwing up the few rich tea biscuits I manage to eat I pull on a pair of leggings and an oversized t-shirt. I may only be a few weeks pregnant but I’ve bloated nicely and my jeans are already too tight.
I get to the hospital just in time for my appointment but they are already behind schedule, how is that possible this early in the morning?
My mind starts to wander the longer I sit there, after all you can only read the same posters on the walls for so long before you start to lose the will to live. Especially when most of those posters are about what could be wrong with your baby, brilliant, they don’t make you worry at all.
10 weeks ago…
It’s the first time I’ve looked forward to my birthday for a few years. But now I’ve got someone other than my family to spend it with I can’t wait. I’ve planned a day in the sun around my parent’s pool with Emma then we’re going out with Ru and Fin tonight, and I am determined to break Fin. He’s trying to play it cool, like he’s totally unaffected by me. But I can see through him. The look on his face when he found out that I’d been sleeping with Elliot was a major giveaway, he looked like someone had just shot his puppy after telling him Santa and the Easter bunny aren’t real. If he didn’t look so devastated I might have laughed. Ruben acted pretty much how I expected him to, which is why I never wanted him to know. I wasn’t expecting Elliot to turn up unannounced, I didn’t think he was that stupid. Clearly I was wrong!
I’ve got a new bikini and outfit for tonight that I’m hoping Fin will love, both show off plenty of skin and what I think are my best assets.
He might have had a little party in our living room last weekend but I can tell he wants me as much, if not more, than he did before. I just need to convince him that it’s a good idea.
Emma and I had spent all afternoon sunning ourselves and I was getting more and more nervous about the boys arrival. One because I was worried about Emma’s reaction, it took quite a bit of convincing to get her in that damn swimming costume knowing Ruben wasn’t going to be here. I’m not sure what she’ll do when he appears, I just hope she doesn’t run. I don’t know what her problem is, she’s stunning and it’s obvious to anyone with eyes that Ruben is obsessed with her already.
I’ve never seen my brother fall for someone, to be honest I never thought it would happen, but I’m loving it. I love the soppy look he gets on his face when he looks at her and the way his eyes light up when she talks to him. He deserves a good woman to love him, he swore himself off relationships years ago and I think that’s such a shame. Our parent’s issues when we were teenagers really affected him, so much so he decided he never wanted to love a woman. I, on the other hand, took it a different way. I saw that no matter what, you should fight for the one you love. I guess that’s why I’ve never given up on the idea of Fin and I being together. We’re only human, we all make mistakes but I do believe we should be big enough to forgive, once. I’m not saying we should all ignore what’s going on around us but we should forgive one mistake and fight. I can see how happy my parents are again now and I would have hated not to see them fight for what they had so they could be happy again together.
I’d got bored of waiting for the boys to show their faces and fallen asleep. But not before removing my bikini top, I didn’t want tan lines visible for my outfit tonight but also I wanted to show Fin what he was missing. And boy did it work when they did appear.
Okay so I wasn’t expecting to be woken up by being covered with ice cold water but I shouldn’t be surprised, I’ve grown up with these two and their prankster ways. I instantly jump up from my sun lounger in surprise while Fin continues to shoot cold water at me from his super soaker. My plan worked though because he is shooting and staring right at my boobs!
Unfortunately Ruben has a bitch fit about me being topless so I have to cover up. It’s a real shame because I loved how he was looking at me. Thankfully me putting my top back on didn’t put him off because from the second he grabbed and pulled me into the pool with him he couldn’t keep his hands off me. My body was buzzing and every time he touched me I was a little closer to orgasm. I’ve been imagining his touch for so long that now I’m getting it I’m desperate for more.
Thankfully the sight of Emma in that costume has Ruben totally distracted so I don’t have to worry too much about him.
The second Fin suggests moving into the Jacuzzi I know I’m in trouble. His eyes have darkened and I can see a wicked glint in them as they lick over my exposed skin like he wants to devour me.
I’ve never seen the clumsy, girly side to Emma that seems to be showing today but I like it. It shows how effected she is by my big brother. I knew she really liked him but was too scared to admit it. I only have so long to ponder that thought though because I’m pulled against Fin’s smoking body and his hands continue their earlier wandering.
I know that I should push him away but I’m powerless to stop him, especially when his fingers slip inside my bikini bottoms. I breathe a sigh of relief that I was organised enough to get a well overdue wax earlier in the week. I glance over at Emma and Ruben in panic but my focus is soon lost when Fin’s fingers flick over my clit. My eyes roll as my head drops back against the side of the Jacuzzi, my muscles suddenly like jelly and unable to function.
“Fuck, baby, I’ve missed this pussy.”
The next few minutes are a blur of sensation, pure pleasure and dirty words. The world disappears and all I can do is feel. I forget where I am, who I’m with and what could happen at any second if Ruben should turn and look our way. I’m embarrassed to say that my surging lust puts pay to any rational thinking.
