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I don’t want that though, I don’t want to settle down. I don’t want to end up heartbroken and like my dad, I don’t want her to end up leaving me like my mum did, or worse for me to get the same and to leave her alone in the world. Then there’s the obvious progression to kids, why the fuck would I want to go through that with the gene pool I’ve got. That’s just a disaster waiting to happen, I couldn’t do that to someone.
I’m pulled from my depressing thoughts when I spot Connie and the weed heading into a crowd of people. I almost let her go, knowing it’s the right thing to do but she makes a huge mistake.
She looks back at me.
I move without thought.
She freezes the second my arm goes around her waist.
“Don’t even think about leaving with him,” I growl in her ear and can’t help feeling pleased when I feel her whole body shudder in my arms. The heat of her naked back against my front warms my whole body and I rub my hard on into her arse so she knows exactly what she does to me, even from afar.
“Jay…I’m…uh…sorry, I can’t go with you.”
I watch as he looks from Connie then up to me. He can obviously read how serious I am because he doesn’t question her.
“No problem, it was good to see you again.” As soon as he’s finished speaking he’s gone.
“Let’s go,” I say before giving her a shove forward to begin walking.
The wait for a taxi takes forever and with every second that passes I can feel myself sobering up and the realisation of what I’m doing starts weighing down on me.
I went away to try to forget about this girl. She’s Ruben’s little sister. He’ll kill me if he ever finds out.
She needs me to be a better person than I am. She wants me to offer her something, a future. I can’t.
I shouldn’t be doing this.
I’m totally lost inside my own head and I’m surprised when I look up to see we are pulling up to Ruben and Connie’s place. Before I blink Connie has paid the driver and is grabbing my hand to pull me out behind her. I follow but only because I’m not really thinking.
She turns as soon as we’re in and stands chest to chest with me. The feeling of her tits lightly pressed against me makes it hard to do what I need to do.
I stand stock still and stare at her. I can see the question in her eyes as to what I’m doing but she obviously ignores it because she reaches up and runs her cheek along mine so she can whisper in my ear. “I want you.”
My cock jerks in my jeans showing just how on board he is. I’m going to do the right thing for once though. Exactly what I should have done ten years ago.
“No, Con.”
My words must be like a slap to the face because she instantly jumps back away from me and she looks at me with utter disbelief written all over her face.
“But…”
“No buts. We both know we shouldn’t so we’re not. I’m saying no this time.”
“But…” she tries again.
“I’m gonna leave.” Panic fills her face as I say this and I reluctantly step towards her.
“Don’t. I don’t want to spend the rest of my birthday night alone. If I knew you were gonna do this I’d have gone home with Jay.”
Hearing her say that makes my blood boil, she’s right though. Who do I think I am to have stopped her doing that only to offer her nothing? It is her birthday though and it makes me feel like shit when I think about leaving her alone.
“Fine, I’ll have a couple of drinks with you, keep you company.” It’ll be fine, we can just have a couple of drinks, right?
I start to question my decision when I see a wicked glint enter her eyes and I watch as she walks off towards the kitchen to get said drink with a serious sway to her hips.
I am in for a world of pain.
Connie shocks me. After getting our drinks she heads into the living room, puts some music on and sits on the opposite end of the sofa to me. She is still wearing that damn revealing cat suit though which is keeping me teetering on the edge of being too turned on to keep my wits about me. If she just leans a little to the side… No look at her face you stupid fucker, that is exactly what she wants.
